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🎙️ EPISODE 4: “Disappearing Act – Dissociation and Trauma” 🎧 Live Monday, June 23, 2025

This podcast is a raw, unfiltered space for anyone who's ever felt broken, ashamed, or completely alone. It’s for those who have survived trauma, battled addiction, faced mental illness, or questioned whether they even belong in their own life.

Here, we talk about the real stuff — the kind people are afraid to say out loud: Abuse. Addiction. Isolation. Identity loss. The lies we tell ourselves… and the truth we need to hear: You are not too far gone to heal.

The Raw Rebuild isn’t about titles, diagnoses, or who people say you should be. It’s about who you are underneath the pain.

Some days we cry. Some days we laugh. But every episode reminds you: 💬 You are not alone. 🛠️ Your story isn’t over. ❤️ And you are worthy of coming back to.

I’m still new to this. I don’t have it all figured out. But I know in my soul — this is what I’m here to do. To turn my pain into purpose. To say the things I wish someone would’ve said to me.

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Most people never share the fear, anxiety and doubt they feel just before doing something courageous. This Episode was unplanned but necessary.

ALSO I get pretty passionate about what I'm talking about in this episode and am almost yelling at a couple points so I apologize for the static. This is a process and I'm sure I'll continue to improve with time. Come che⁠ck ouy my Patr⁠⁠eon at https://patreon.com/TheRawRebuildPodcast me out on my patreon for materials that promote healing and exclusive content including my most soul baring, and raw chapters of my testimony.

In this episode, I’m hitting pause on the heavy topics — and taking a moment to properly introduce myself.

You’ve heard pieces of my past, but I want you to know who I am today. The real me. Not just the pain or the struggle, but the person underneath it all: the artist, the truth-teller, the woman who’s rebuilding her life from the inside out.

This is where the story gets personal. This is me.

Welcome to the very first episode of The Raw Rebuild. I’m Melissa — and for most of my life, I stayed silent. About my trauma. About my addiction. About everything that tried to break me.

But silence didn’t protect me.
It protected my abusers. It protected shame. And it kept me hidden — even from the people I love most.

In this episode, I speak out for the first time. I open up about why I disappeared, why I didn’t fight harder, and how I only recently began to believe I’m worth rebuilding. You’ll hear parts of my truth I’ve never shared out loud… and maybe, just maybe, you’ll hear your own story somewhere in mine.

This isn’t a podcast about perfection.
It’s about pain, truth, healing, and finding your way back to yourself — one raw piece at a time.

If you’ve ever felt broken, ashamed, or completely alone —
this space is for you.

You are not too far gone.
You are not broken beyond repair.
And your story isn’t over.

This is the raw, unfiltered story of how I spent life trying to be everything for everyone — a perfect daughter, a devoted wife, a fearless mother — all while silently battling anxiety, depression, addiction, and the crushing weight of never feeling “enough.” From high-achieving student and competitive dancer to single mother of three, this testimony takes you through the painful highs and devastating lows of trauma, heartbreak, substance abuse, and the unbearable loss of my children.

Told with brutal honesty and unwavering vulnerability, this is not just a story of pain — it’s a story of survival. It's about losing everything and still daring to believe that healing is possible. If you’ve ever felt broken, alone, judged, or misunderstood, this testimony will speak directly to your soul.

This isn’t a polished redemption arc. It’s a real-life journey through darkness, written by someone who’s still learning how to step back into the light.

I will be breaking down my testimony chapter by chapter while hopefully offering support, affirmations, encouragment and hope to those who have struggled or are still struggling with something similar and hopefully you can provide me with the same on those hard days.