In Episode 5 of Pain. Full. Truth., I open up about the hidden battles that come with living on long-term medication for Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (CRPS) and phantom limb pain.

I talk about the slow increase of Pregabalin over three years, the cocktail of drugs I take each day, and the side effects nobody warns you about — from brain fog to fatigue to hallucinations I rarely admit to.

But it’s not just the meds. This episode explores the silent impact of trying to show up for family trips and birthdays, while knowing I’ll pay the price for days afterwards. The guilt of watching my wife shoulder more, the pressure I put on myself to be “better by now,” and the way I hide the pain because I’m tired of saying the same words over and over.

I also talk about stepping away from streaming when it all got too much — and how online communities brought me back, reminding me I wasn’t completely alone.

This is an episode about the things we don’t say out loud, and the weight we carry in silence.

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In Episode 4 of Pain. Full. Truth., I open up about the spiral — those stretches of time when chronic pain, medication, and exhaustion all collide.

I talk about the toll of living with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (CRPS), the endless cycle of appointments, and the mental health battles that come with trying to stay afloat when your body keeps dragging you down.

This episode isn’t just about pain — it’s about honesty. About admitting when you’re not coping, about the hidden costs of trying to hold it together, and about the moments when silence feels easier than telling the truth.

If you live with chronic illness, disability, or know someone who does, this episode shines a light on the reality most of us never speak out loud.

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In Episode 3 of Pain. Full. Truth., I take you inside the day that changed my life forever — the morning I walked into the operating theatre knowing I would leave without part of my foot. After months of battling chronic pain and Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (CRPS), the decision to amputate had been made, but nothing could prepare me for the reality.

From the quiet journey to the hospital, to the last painful steps on my original foot, and the surreal moments waking up after surgery, this episode is an unfiltered account of amputation, nerve pain, and the hope that maybe this would be the turning point.

If you’re living with disability, recovering from major surgery, or navigating invisible illness, this story offers a rare look at the emotional and physical reality of such a life-changing day.

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In Episode 2 of Pain. Full. Truth., the story moves from hope to one of the hardest choices of my life — the decision to amputate. After my first surgery failed to bring relief and the chronic pain only grew, doctors finally mentioned the unthinkable: removing part of my foot.

I share the relentless symptoms of Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (CRPS), the endless medical appointments, and the emotional weight of letting go of the career I had built. This was more than a medical decision — it was about identity, survival, and the fight to take back control from nerve pain and a rare disease that was reshaping my future.

For anyone facing impossible medical choices, living with disability, or navigating invisible illness, this episode is a raw look at the reality behind those moments.

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In this first episode of Pain. Full. Truth., (with updated audio) I share the day my life changed — the diagnosis of an enchondroma (a benign bone tumour) and the decision to go ahead with surgery. At the time, I thought it would be a quick fix, but it became the first step in a long journey through chronic pain, Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (CRPS), and a future I never expected.

I talk about preparing for my first surgery, explaining it to my kids, and the subtle but worrying signs that something wasn’t right during recovery. This is where my chronic illness journey truly began — long before I knew the words nerve pain or rare disease.

If you live with disability, invisible illness, or are navigating your own health challenges, this is the start of my story.

CRPS. Phantom limb pain. Mental health battles. Pain. Full. Truth. is my unfiltered journey — from diagnosis to amputation, recovery, and finding a new normal. Honest stories, small wins, setbacks, and the reality of living with chronic pain.

🎧 First 3 episodes drop 14 August 2025
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