In Episode 5 of Pain. Full. Truth., I open up about the hidden battles that come with living on long-term medication for Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (CRPS) and phantom limb pain.

I talk about the slow increase of Pregabalin over three years, the cocktail of drugs I take each day, and the side effects nobody warns you about — from brain fog to fatigue to hallucinations I rarely admit to.

But it’s not just the meds. This episode explores the silent impact of trying to show up for family trips and birthdays, while knowing I’ll pay the price for days afterwards. The guilt of watching my wife shoulder more, the pressure I put on myself to be “better by now,” and the way I hide the pain because I’m tired of saying the same words over and over.

I also talk about stepping away from streaming when it all got too much — and how online communities brought me back, reminding me I wasn’t completely alone.

This is an episode about the things we don’t say out loud, and the weight we carry in silence.

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In Episode 4 of Pain. Full. Truth., I open up about the spiral — those stretches of time when chronic pain, medication, and exhaustion all collide.

I talk about the toll of living with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (CRPS), the endless cycle of appointments, and the mental health battles that come with trying to stay afloat when your body keeps dragging you down.

This episode isn’t just about pain — it’s about honesty. About admitting when you’re not coping, about the hidden costs of trying to hold it together, and about the moments when silence feels easier than telling the truth.

If you live with chronic illness, disability, or know someone who does, this episode shines a light on the reality most of us never speak out loud.

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In Episode 3 of Pain. Full. Truth., I take you inside the day that changed my life forever — the morning I walked into the operating theatre knowing I would leave without part of my foot. After months of battling chronic pain and Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (CRPS), the decision to amputate had been made, but nothing could prepare me for the reality.

From the quiet journey to the hospital, to the last painful steps on my original foot, and the surreal moments waking up after surgery, this episode is an unfiltered account of amputation, nerve pain, and the hope that maybe this would be the turning point.

If you’re living with disability, recovering from major surgery, or navigating invisible illness, this story offers a rare look at the emotional and physical reality of such a life-changing day.

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