We don’t talk enough about what happens after the breakthroughs.

After the big realizations.

After the emotional releases.

After the moments that change everything.

Because eventually, healing gets quiet.

In this episode, I’m sharing what healing looks like for me right now in real life — not in ceremonies or dramatic shifts, but in the small, consistent choices that regulate my nervous system and create peace in my everyday life.

We’re talking about the maintenance phase of healing.

The 5:15 AM hot sculpt yoga class I never want to wake up for but always changes my day.

Choosing sleep instead of overthinking after conflict.

Drinking water, eating cleaner, and sitting with myself even when I don’t feel like it.

Learning to care without carrying everyone else’s emotions as a nurse and an empath.

Letting peace be routine instead of chasing intensity.

If your healing feels “boring” right now — if it looks like repetition, boundaries, rest, and small daily habits — you are not doing it wrong.

You are stabilizing.

Healing isn’t always loud.

It’s not always a breakthrough.

Sometimes it’s the quiet, consistent practices that become the medicine within you.

Peace is routine.

Peace is repetitive.

Peace is healing.

This episode is for anyone who is in the maintenance phase — building a regulated, grounded life one small choice at a time.

For most of my life, I thought ego was confidence.

I didn’t realize it was fear quietly running everything.

In this episode, I share how my healing journey — especially through ibogaine and DMT — helped me finally see the difference between ego and intuition, and how learning to listen to that quiet inner voice changed the way I live, work, love, and show up for myself.

We talk about:

• how ego shows up as anxiety, control, validation, people-pleasing, and survival

• how intuition feels calm, grounded, and steady — even when it leads you somewhere uncomfortable

• walking away from a job that caused constant dread

• shifting from defensiveness to boundaries in relationships

• letting go of identity, status, and the need to prove

• releasing shame around motherhood and learning to give myself grace

• how emotions move through the body — and what happens when we don’t let them

• everyday intuition — from delays and red lights to losing (and finding) something meaningful

• why you don’t need a big ceremony to heal

• how intuition and manifesting are deeply connected

• and why the real medicine has always been within you

This episode is about slowing down, getting quiet, and learning how to tell the difference between fear and truth in your own everyday life.

Because intuition is the medicine.

And when you learn to listen, everything begins to align.

✨ If this resonates, take a breath, pause, and remember — nothing meant for you will miss you.

In this episode of The Medicine Spoke, I talk about why true healing begins with self-forgiveness — and why letting go of the past isn’t possible if we’re still punishing ourselves for who we were.

I share parts of my story that I carried shame around for years: becoming a mom at sixteen, divorce, regret, mistakes, and the fear of being alone with myself. I explore how shame keeps the nervous system stuck in survival, how self-judgment can feel like control, and why forgiveness is actually an act of self-love.

This episode is also about release and momentum — what I let go of in 2025, what I released during the final full moon of the Year of the Snake, and how I’m stepping forward into a new season without dragging old versions of myself behind me. I share practical ways to begin forgiving yourself, stop taking revenge on yourself, and carry the lesson without carrying the weight.

If you’ve ever struggled to love yourself because of your past, this episode is for you.

What does it actually mean to love yourself — beyond affirmations and self-care trends?

In this episode, I share why I intentionally say “I am happy, I love myself” every single day, and how self-love has become the foundation for nervous system safety, self-belief, and alignment in my life.

We talk about how loving yourself isn’t selfish — it’s essential.

How self-love creates trust within your body.

And how that trust allows you to stop chasing and start allowing what’s meant for you.

I share real moments from my daily life — listening to my body, resting without guilt, setting boundaries without over-explaining, choosing joy freely, and trusting God and the process even when the path isn’t clear. I also open up about how self-love changes relationships, especially within a marriage, and why both men and women deserve permission to be human.

This episode is about what changes when you stop abandoning yourself —

how self-love creates safety, belief, and a deeper trust in the path you’re walking.

This is where the medicine continues — in how you choose yourself when no one is watching.

In a world that feels loud, divided, and overwhelming, it can be hard to know where to place your attention — especially when your own life feels just as chaotic. Between nonstop schedules, kids’ sports, co-parenting, work, relationships, and personal dreams, the noise doesn’t just live in the headlines… it lives in our homes and our bodies too.

In this episode, Ashton reflects on a season of life where her calendar feels relentless and the world feels unsettled — and how she’s learning that healing doesn’t always come from big moments or escapes. Sometimes, the real medicine is found in the ordinary.

She shares honestly about navigating a packed family schedule, relying on a true village, why her circle has gotten smaller, and the daily practices that help her stay grounded — prayer, boundaries, rest, and choosing herself without guilt.

This episode is a reminder that you don’t have to wait for life to slow down to find peace. If your life feels full and you’re doing the best you can, this one’s for you.

Because sometimes, the ordinary moments are the medicine.

In this honest and heartfelt episode of The Medicine Spoke, Ashton unpacks her 2026 mantra: “Happiness is a choice.” What began as a simple phrase on a piece of home décor in her first apartment has become a powerful daily practice for regulating her nervous system and responding — rather than reacting — to life.

Ashton shares real-life examples of how this mantra shows up in her marriage, parenting, starting a new PRN nursing job, and even navigating frustrating moments in traffic. She explains how pausing, taking a breath, and intentionally choosing peace can shift the body out of fight-or-flight and create more safety, clarity, and connection in relationships.

This episode isn’t about toxic positivity or getting it “right.” It’s about awareness, grace, and the messy work of learning to feel safe in your own body after deep healing experiences. Ashton also reflects on how her recent DMT experience echoed this truth — that her purpose is simply to be happy and at peace.

If you’ve ever felt reactive, overwhelmed, or hard on yourself, this episode offers a gentle invitation to practice choosing differently — one breath, one moment, and one choice at a time.

What happens after the journey ends?

After the medicine quiets…

after you feel changed on the inside…

but the world around you looks exactly the same.

In this episode of The Medicine Spoke, we talk about integration — the often-overlooked part of healing. The return to everyday life. The grief, clarity, patience, and daily choices that come after transformational experiences.

Using the New Year as a symbolic blank slate, this episode explores what it really means to heal in real time — in the same house, the same roles, the same responsibilities — while learning to live differently.

You’ll hear reflections on:

• Feeling reborn internally while life stays the same externally
• Integration as a slow, honest, and sometimes messy process
• Using intention instead of pressure in the New Year
• Trusting the medicine within you — not rushing the process

This episode is an invitation to slow down, be patient with yourself, and remember:

healing isn’t linear, and you don’t have to walk it alone.

There’s a part of the healing journey nobody really talks about —

the quiet after… the Gray Day… the place between fear and surrender.

In this episode, I share my Gray Day after ibogaine and my 5-MeO-DMT experience — the fear, the letting go, the visions, the tears, the prayers, and the deep peace that followed.

You’ll hear about:

• what Gray Day actually is

• why the silence is so intense

• my 5-MeO-DMT experience and what it felt like inside it

• the moment I thought I died — and what happened next

• releasing shame, mom-guilt, fear, and old stories

• meeting God, surrender, and rebirth

• what integration felt like when I came home

• and how all of this led me here — to you

This is the story of how the medicine broke me open and helped me start again.

And this is only the beginning — the next episodes dive into life after, integration, and how I began learning to truly heal.