If you found this today, it’s not by accident.
This episode is for the ones who are hurting right now.
Not later. Not after healing.
Right now.

You might be listening with tears sitting close.
With exhaustion in your bones. With questions that don’t have answers yet.

I’ve come to let you know something simple and true. You are not alone.

I am your host, Cyndi McKoy.
And today, we are not fixing grief. We are sitting with it together.

Take a slow breath. You don’t have to be strong here.

Most people think grief is sadness. It is not.

Grief is love with nowhere to go. Grief is shock that lasts longer than anyone warns you.
Grief is your body trying to make sense of a new reality it did not agree to.

Grief shows up as anger.
Brain fog. Exhaustion. Isolation. Guilt.
Relief mixed with shame for feeling relieved.

If you were abandoned, your grief includes rejection.
Questions.
What did I miss.
What was wrong with me.

If someone passed away, your grief includes unfinished conversations.
Words you thought you had time to say.

Here is the truth people avoid.
Grief is not linear.
You do not graduate from it.
You learn how to carry it differently.

And today, we arrive at the final episode 10 of this series: New Beginnings.

This is not about pretending the hurt is gone.

It’s not about forgetting.

This is about weaving sorrow and love, tears and memories,

into something new — something beautiful.

So, take a deep breath with me. Inhale hope… and exhale heaviness.
Let’s step into what it means to begin again.”

, we’ve arrived at Episode Nine: Learning Yourself.

Grief changes you.

It reshapes how you see the world, how you show up in relationships,

and even how you see yourself.

The person you were before the loss will never fully return—

and that’s not a bad thing. It means you are evolving.

When we talk about ‘learning yourself, we’re really talking about discovering who you are now, after the storm.

Today, we step into the tender but necessary process of recovery. Recovery isn’t about forgetting or ‘getting over it.’ It’s about learning to breathe again, to take small steps, and to give yourself grace in the rebuilding.

In the beginning, people show up. The phone rings, the texts arrive, cards fill your mailbox. You may even get so much food dropped off you don’t know what to do with it. For a while, it feels like you’re being carried by a community of people who care.

But then, almost without warning… it changes.
The calls slow down. The meals stop coming. The texts grow fewer and fewer. And eventually, silence settles in.

For the rest of the world, life has gone back to “normal.”
But your normal? Will never be the same again.

Today we are stepping into a season that many don’t talk enough about — The Aftershock.

The flowers have wilted.

The guests have gone home. The phone calls slow down.

And suddenly, the quiet is louder than ever.

This is the time when the weight of grief truly settles in.

It’s the space after the event, when the world seems to keep moving,

but your world has changed forever.

Today we are stepping into one of the hardest moments in the journey of grief — The Event.

The day when friends and family gather. The day when we honor the life of the one we’ve lost. The day that feels like both a blur and an eternity.

This moment carries so much weight — sorrow, love, memories, and the reality of goodbye. But it also carries the possibility of healing, of being surrounded by support, and of glimpsing the power of faith even in the valley.