This week on My Vicious Love, we’re talking about something I like to call Relationship-itis—that messy, in-between space where you want love… but you’re not exactly ready to act like you do. You’re craving connection, intimacy, consistency—all the things that come with a real relationship—but at the same time, you’re still holding onto your freedom, your options, your… chaos. And yeah, we’re gonna say it plainly: you want the relationship, but you’re not ready to stop being outside.

I’m joined by Amy and Eden, and we really get into it—from every angle. Male perspective, female perspective, gay, straight—no boundaries, no filters. We talk about what it actually feels like to be single right now, the emotional rollercoaster of dating, and that constant push and pull between wanting something real and not wanting to give up your independence. Because let’s be honest, it’s not just about other people—it’s about the battle happening inside you.

We get into the ugly parts too. The ghosting, the mixed signals, the almost-relationships, the “what are we?” conversations that go nowhere. All of it starts to stack up until you hit that point where you’re just exhausted. You’re like, “I’m done. I don’t want this anymore.” So you lean into being single, you get a little jaded, a little colder… but then that feeling creeps back in. The one that still wants love, still wants partnership, still wants something deeper.

And that’s really what this episode is about—the gray area. That space where you’re torn between two versions of yourself. The one that wants to be free, and the one that wants to be chosen. The one that’s tired of the game, but still somehow playing it. It’s messy, it’s honest, and it’s probably a little too real. So if you’ve ever felt stuck between “fuck this” and “I want forever,” this one’s for you.

The Aftermath: Peace Feels Weird When You’re Used to War is about what happens when everything finally stops. Not the breakdown, not the conflict—but what comes after it. When the noise dies, the tension disappears, and the people who once filled every emotional corner are no longer there. It’s that moment where life isn’t falling apart anymore… but it also doesn’t feel the way you expected it to.

This conversation with Eden Bookman grounds that reality. As someone who was present through some of the most defining, chaotic chapters, Eden brings a perspective that isn’t just supportive—it’s honest. Together, this episode reflects on the journey across these past 21 episodes, not to rehash the drama, but to understand what it all meant, what actually changed, and what growth really looks like when it’s no longer loud or performative.

Because the truth is, the aftermath isn’t dramatic—it’s quiet, and sometimes that quiet feels uncomfortable. Forgiveness happens. Boundaries get solidified. Certain bridges stay burned, others just fade. And what’s left is a version of life that’s more stable, more grounded… but unfamiliar at first. This episode sits in that space—the adjustment, the clarity, and the realization that peace can feel strange when you’ve spent so long learning how to survive chaos.

Feuds: Is Revenge a Dish Best Served Cold?

This week on My Vicious Love, after a nearly six-month hiatus, I am back with a bang to tackle a topic that may seem taboo but resonates deeply in everyone’s life: feuds and revenge. From personal experiences to profound losses, feuds have shaped relationships in ways we often overlook. Is seeking revenge the best way to settle old scores, or does it only deepen the wounds?

In this episode, I’ll dive into the complexities of feuds with friends and family, exploring the emotional and psychological impacts they leave behind. Through my own stories of conflict and resolution, I’ll shed light on the motivations behind revenge and whether it truly serves as closure or simply fuels more pain. Let’s break down the notion of revenge, its consequences, and whether there’s a better way to heal from betrayal. Join me as we uncover the layers of this powerful, often hidden, part of human interaction.

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