What happens when a child is told they are broken before life has even properly begun?

In this episode of After The Fall Show, I sit down with Ellen Busch for a powerful conversation about dyslexia, bullying, low self-worth, trauma, healing, and what it means to rebuild a life after being written off by the systems meant to support you.

Ellen shares how her dyslexic journey began in childhood, how the education system underestimated her, and how those early messages shaped her confidence, identity, and sense of worth for years to come. We talk about being treated as less than, surviving school while carrying labels that were never truly yours, and the long shadow those experiences can cast across adult life.

But this episode is not just about dyslexia in school.

It is also about what happens later, when low self-esteem becomes a doorway for harmful people, toxic relationships, and deeper emotional damage. Ellen opens up about stalkers, narcissistic abuse, reaching a breaking point, and the surrender moment that began her journey back to herself.

We also explore healing, self-discovery, the five-mountain approach to growth, and how recovery can move beyond survival into something stronger — a life of confidence, purpose, and thriving.

In this episode we explore:

- dyslexia and childhood school experiences

- bullying, shame, and being written off early

- low self-worth and long-term emotional impact

- predators, narcissistic abuse, and survival

- surrender, recovery, and rebuilding confidence

- self-discovery, healing, and thriving after trauma

- why dyslexia can also be a strength

If you’ve ever felt misunderstood, underestimated, or made to believe you were less than you really are, this episode will speak to you.

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00:00 Introduction

00:48 Ellen’s early dyslexia journey

01:21 Diagnosed young and written off by school

03:33 Intelligence ignored and confidence damaged

04:41 Dyslexia in schools then and now

07:02 What dyslexia felt like inside

08:20 Bullying, shame, and being treated as less than

10:34 Separate classrooms and being marked as different

11:16 The moment life had to change

12:15 Low self-worth, predators, and narcissistic abuse

13:18 Reaching surrender point

15:54 What people get wrong about recovery

16:36 Surrender, survival, and refusing to quit

19:10 Why healing cannot be done alone

20:56 The five-mountain healing journey

23:53 Healing the whole self

25:55 Writing the book and sharing the message

28:29 Striving, reviving, and thriving

29:25 The feather question

30:33 Where to find Ellen and her book

32:11 Closing reflections on dyslexia as a strength

What happens when a broken childhood, parenthood, and the search for meaning all collide?

In this episode of The After The Fall Show, I sit down with Rob from Adeptus Psychonautica for a raw and thought-provoking conversation about childhood trauma, resilience, psychedelics, DMT, ayahuasca, mythology, spirituality, healing, and the search for a guiding star.

Rob shares how growing up in a deeply chaotic and abusive environment shaped his view of life, identity, and survival. We talk about the moment parenthood forced him to reflect on the kind of man he had become, and how that led him to revisit psychedelics not as escape, but as a tool for self-discovery and deeper introspection.

This episode explores profound experiences with DMT, the spiritual and philosophical impact of ayahuasca, the power of mythology, the meaning crisis in modern life, and why healing is not the same as simply having the experience. Rob also speaks honestly about the darker side of psychedelic work, the brutal nature of some healing journeys, and the importance of having a North Star so you do not lose your way.

If you have ever wrestled with trauma, identity, spirituality, meaning, or the question of what really changes a person, this conversation will stay with you.

In this episode we explore:

• childhood trauma and resilience

• becoming a parent and choosing change

• psychedelics as introspection, not escape

• profound DMT experiences

• ayahuasca, healing and difficult journeys

• mythology, spirituality and modern life

• healing versus simply having the experience

• why a guiding star matters

Find Rob on YouTube: Adeptus Psychonautica

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Chapters:
00:00 Introduction to the episode

00:30 Rob’s early life and broken upbringing

03:53 Finding normality in chaos

07:31 Becoming a parent and the need to change

10:37 Revisiting psychedelics with purpose

14:11 DMT and the profound spiritual experience

19:04 Meaning, mythology and the nature of reality

27:31 Love, connection and the maternal experience

29:08 Ayahuasca and deeper spiritual exploration

30:58 The difficult side of healing

33:56 Ayahuasca, purging and recovery

37:42 How the journey changed Rob as a parent

39:21 Self-discovery, healing and the work afterwards

41:07 Psychedelics, recovery and what people miss

43:46 Spiritual experience and human connection

47:04 The spiritual hole in modern society

51:59 Finding your North Star

57:40 Where to find Rob

The conversation delves into the themes of identity, self-sabotage, failing health, dialysis, recovery, faith, and purpose.

Zorosa shares her journey of overcoming self-sabotage, rapidly failing health including having to go through the process of organ donation and finding faith as she healed, and embracing her unique identity as a christian. Her story highlights the value of the recovery journey and the power of faith in finding purpose and healing.

Takeaways

• The value of the recovery journey
• The impact on identity and health to fit in
• Human resilience
• The power of faith and purpose

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In this "After Dark" - Bonus Episode : Icarus discusses the concept of 'badges' and the impact they have on our lives, emphasizing the need to take a step back and focus on oneself in times of overwhelming stress and anxiety. He provides practical advice on managing the demands of various roles and responsibilities, advocating for a mindful and step-by-step approach to breaking the cycle of anxiety and trauma.

Takeaways

• The concept of 'badges' represents the various roles and responsibilities we carry, which can become overwhelming and stressful.
• Taking a step back, focusing on oneself, and prioritizing tasks mindfully can help break the cycle of anxiety and trauma.

Chapters

• 00:00 The Concept of 'Badges'
• 07:27 Breaking the Cycle of Anxiety and Trauma

After Dark the "After The Fall Show" after show. This a platform for reflection, knowledge sharing, and learning without a story. It aims to share street therapy, knowledge, wisdom, and learnings, while exploring the universal and individual aspects of life. The show also features specialists who provide support, guidance, and wisdom without being the person with the arc.

Takeaways

• Reflection and learning without a story
• Sharing street therapy, knowledge, and wisdom
• What we think by reaction isn't always the truth of what is happening
• We always have a choice in life to react in different ways. Not just the one our impulse and habits tell us to do
• Life often hide's behind the story we see and there is more than one lesson in any situation.

Chapters

• 00:00 Introduction to After Dark
• 05:27 Generational Consequences
• 12:43 Emotional Intelligence and Acceptance

The conversation delves into the personal journey of Moses, exploring the impact of childhood experiences, trauma, addiction, and recovery. It highlights the importance of seeking help, recognizing the need for change, and finding self-worth and healing through love and connection.

Takeaways

• Alcoholism and addiction can have deep roots in childhood experiences and family dynamics.
• Recovery and change require a shift in perspective and a willingness to seek help and support from others.

Chapters

• 00:00 Introduction to the Topic
• 06:20 The Impact of Trauma and Loss
• 11:28 Reaching the Lowest Point
• 18:31 The Turning Point and Recovery
• 26:07 The Journey to Self-Worth and Healing
• 32:19 The Power of Love and Connection
  
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What happens when childhood trauma, abuse, grief and years of masking finally catch up with you?

In this episode of The After The Fall Show, I sit down with Natalie for a raw conversation about autism, ADHD, school trauma, self-harm, domestic abuse, grief, healing and the long road back to yourself.

Natalie shares how growing up undiagnosed left her anxious, overwhelmed and masking heavily from a young age. She opens up about depression in childhood, self-harm as a release, PTSD, fibromyalgia linked to trauma, and the pain of losing her dad after a rapid battle with cancer.

We also talk about the moment everything had to change — reaching a point of complete despair, finding the strength to leave an abusive relationship, and slowly rebuilding through support, self-work, boundaries and learning to trust again.

This is an episode about what happens when life strips everything back and asks you to choose yourself.

If you have ever lived through abuse, loss, trauma, masking, burnout or the feeling that you have lost who you are, this conversation will speak to you.

In this episode we explore:

• late diagnosis of autism and ADHD

• school trauma and masking

• depression and self-harm

• PTSD, trauma and chronic pain

• losing a parent and deep grief

• domestic abuse and leaving

• suicidal crisis and reaching out

• healing, support and rebuilding trust

• letting go of the old version of yourself

Chapters:

00:00 Introduction

00:31 Natalie before the fall

02:22 What was happening behind the mask

03:40 Masking, self-harm and hidden pain

04:28 PTSD, trauma and fibromyalgia

06:35 Losing her dad

07:47 Numbness, grief and shock

09:30 The breaking point

10:33 Leaving abuse and choosing life

12:41 What rebuilding actually looked like

14:46 Reaching out and accepting support

16:55 What people get wrong about change

17:28 Letting go of the old version of yourself

18:15 Healing, trust and building a new support network

21:09 There is no time limit on healing

22:28 Natalie’s message to anyone struggling

25:44 The whirlpool metaphor for healing

26:31 Closing reflections on abuse, power and survival

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