In My Experience

In this episode I sit down with Bobby Eppleman for a real conversation about vulnerability, recovery, and how masculinity and leadership evolve when performance stops working.

We begin with consent and context. I share about my spiritual awakening and the five year unwinding that followed, including the deep recovery work that came after experiencing harm within a former relationship and business partnership. I talk about what it has meant to rebuild trust with myself, with others, and with life.

Bobby walks us through his own transformation from an achievement driven identity shaped by athletics and alcoholism into a life organized around emotional honesty, therapy, and family. We explore how success changes when connection becomes the measure.

We also unpack cultural ideas about “alpha” roles, what strength really looks like, and why so many of us answer “I’m great” when we are anything but.

This is a conversation about growing up without losing heart.

Topics we move through

• Awakening versus integration
• Recovery after relational and professional trauma
• The long unwinding after crisis
• Emotional literacy and why words matter
• Healthy masculinity
• Leadership through presence instead of dominance
• Giving ourselves permission to cry
• Play and imagination as resilience
• Parenting, custody realities, and capacity
• Building work slowly and sustainably

Practical tools Bobby shares

• Using an emotions color wheel to help people name what they feel
• Visualization practices like stone throwing and boat imagery
• Creating environments where honesty is safe
• Modeling vulnerability first

About Bobby

Bobby is a speaker and educator devoted to helping people build lives and leadership styles rooted in connection and truth. He is currently focusing on live speaking, refining keynote structure, and opening availability through Instagram.

Connect with Bobby: @certifiablycreative

Connect with me

If this episode resonates and you want to explore working together, you can find me at @hyacinthhealing.

I offer Akashic work, regression support, and containers where your experiences can be witnessed and integrated.

My guest today couldn’t make it. So, I did what women have done in kitchens, courtrooms, and quiet bedrooms for centuries.

I spoke anyway.

This solo episode became something raw and unscripted. A reckoning with family court, custody battles, Protection From Abuse orders, and the way legal systems can fracture a mother’s life with the flick of a signature.

This is not a clean narrative. It is lived experience.

🌿 In This Episode, I share:

• What it felt like to be served repeated PFA orders

• Forced eviction and navigating a season of homelessness, even with community support

• Losing income overnight after being cut off from a shared business

• How court continuations and legal maneuvers can function as control tactics

• The emotional rupture of being separated from my child, my home, my animals, and the healing sanctuary I was building

• The collapse of the homestead vision I was cultivating

• Co-parenting challenges without reciprocal support

• The psychological weight of carrying everything alone

⚖️ Family Court, Custody, and Systemic Tactics

I speak candidly about how destabilization can happen through paperwork instead of violence.

How continuations prolong chaos. How financial restriction becomes a quiet weapon. How reputation is reshaped by allegations before truth ever enters the room.

I reference the documentary Children of the Underground, which explores how systems can fail mothers and children. Watching it felt like holding a mirror to questions many of us are afraid to say out loud.

This episode is not legal advice. It is lived testimony.

🔥 Breakdown or Awakening?

Trauma cracked me open.

I question something that still lives in the air around many women:

When does a psychological breakdown become a spiritual awakening? When does trauma unlock gifts? When does survival turn into initiation?

In this episode, I share how loss, legal persecution, and instability coincided with the emergence of psychic sensitivity, boundary clarity, and a deeper devotion to grounding practices.

Not fantasy. Integration.

The Homestead That Lives in My Bones

I talk about the sanctuary I was building.

A space for healing. Animals grazing. Children playing in dirt without fear. A community gathering under trees instead of fluorescent lights.

Losing that space was devastating. But the vision did not die. It went underground like a root system waiting for rain.

Channeling Anger In the Divine Feminine Energy System

This episode is not a rant. It is alchemy.

I invite listeners to:

• Transform anger into advocacy

• Stay grounded while speaking truth

• Question systems without losing compassion

• Protect their nervous systems while fighting for reform

💛 Integration & Gratitude

Even in the storm, I acknowledge:

• The friends and family who held me • The humility of rebuilding • The importance of therapy, grounding, and self-reflection • The necessity of authenticity

This episode closes not with certainty, but with commitment. To healing. To motherhood. To truth-telling.

If you have navigated family court, custody battles, spiritual awakening through trauma, or the question of breakdown versus initiation, you are not alone.

This conversation is an open door.

Connect with me: Instagram: @hyacinthhealing

Offerings + sessions: Linktree

Thank you for listening to In My Experience.

In Part 2 of my conversation with Erica Cordeiro, we move deeper into the layers of spiritual experience that don’t always fit into neat language — but deeply shape how we live, parent, and relate to ourselves and others.

We talk about religion and fear conditioning, reclaiming a direct relationship with Spirit, and what it’s like to awaken before having words for what you’re experiencing. We explore Jesus and Mary Magdalene as lived, embodied experiences rather than doctrine, and the re-emergence of the feminine divine as something felt in the body, not just understood in theory.

I also share more about what I’ve been actively unraveling around interdimensional experiences, including memories of being a super soldier on a moon and traveling in space, and what it takes to integrate expanded awareness while staying grounded in everyday life. We touch on homeschooling, nervous system sensitivity, sovereignty within systems, and the ongoing “chicken or the egg” question of intuition — perception, manifestation, or remembering.

This episode isn’t about convincing or explaining. It’s about allowing lived experience, complexity, and embodiment to exist without rushing to conclusions.

Topics Covered:

• Religion, fear conditioning, and spiritual sovereignty
• Jesus, Mary Magdalene, and the feminine divine
• Awakening before language (chakras, clairs, nervous system awareness)
• Interdimensional experiences and integration
• Parenting, homeschooling, and sensitivity within systems
• Intuition as perception, manifestation, or remembrance

Erica Cordeiro is a psychic medium, frequency activator, and host of the Modern but Mystical podcast who helps highly sensitive women who lead, create, and hold space for others become energetically unfuckwithable. Her work centers on intuition, embodiment, and self-sovereignty, guiding them to stop seeking answers outside themselves and start trusting what they already know.

Connect with us:

Erica Cordeiro: Instagram or https://alignwitherica.com/

Christine DiGinto: Instagram or Linktree

Additional Links:

Third Eye Awakening Podcast with Amy Belair - Christine's Awakening episode

Erica’s PLR Session Guide