My guest today couldn’t make it. So, I did what women have done in kitchens, courtrooms, and quiet bedrooms for centuries.

I spoke anyway.

This solo episode became something raw and unscripted. A reckoning with family court, custody battles, Protection From Abuse orders, and the way legal systems can fracture a mother’s life with the flick of a signature.

This is not a clean narrative. It is lived experience.

🌿 In This Episode, I share:

• What it felt like to be served repeated PFA orders

• Forced eviction and navigating a season of homelessness, even with community support

• Losing income overnight after being cut off from a shared business

• How court continuations and legal maneuvers can function as control tactics

• The emotional rupture of being separated from my child, my home, my animals, and the healing sanctuary I was building

• The collapse of the homestead vision I was cultivating

• Co-parenting challenges without reciprocal support

• The psychological weight of carrying everything alone

⚖️ Family Court, Custody, and Systemic Tactics

I speak candidly about how destabilization can happen through paperwork instead of violence.

How continuations prolong chaos. How financial restriction becomes a quiet weapon. How reputation is reshaped by allegations before truth ever enters the room.

I reference the documentary Children of the Underground, which explores how systems can fail mothers and children. Watching it felt like holding a mirror to questions many of us are afraid to say out loud.

This episode is not legal advice. It is lived testimony.

🔥 Breakdown or Awakening?

Trauma cracked me open.

I question something that still lives in the air around many women:

When does a psychological breakdown become a spiritual awakening? When does trauma unlock gifts? When does survival turn into initiation?

In this episode, I share how loss, legal persecution, and instability coincided with the emergence of psychic sensitivity, boundary clarity, and a deeper devotion to grounding practices.

Not fantasy. Integration.

The Homestead That Lives in My Bones

I talk about the sanctuary I was building.

A space for healing. Animals grazing. Children playing in dirt without fear. A community gathering under trees instead of fluorescent lights.

Losing that space was devastating. But the vision did not die. It went underground like a root system waiting for rain.

Channeling Anger In the Divine Feminine Energy System

This episode is not a rant. It is alchemy.

I invite listeners to:

• Transform anger into advocacy

• Stay grounded while speaking truth

• Question systems without losing compassion

• Protect their nervous systems while fighting for reform

💛 Integration & Gratitude

Even in the storm, I acknowledge:

• The friends and family who held me • The humility of rebuilding • The importance of therapy, grounding, and self-reflection • The necessity of authenticity

This episode closes not with certainty, but with commitment. To healing. To motherhood. To truth-telling.

If you have navigated family court, custody battles, spiritual awakening through trauma, or the question of breakdown versus initiation, you are not alone.

This conversation is an open door.

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Thank you for listening to In My Experience.