Lonely wasn’t something I felt for the first time in prison.

It was something I learned as a child.

In this episode of Unchained, I talk about growing up in chaos, my mom’s marriages, the boyfriend who did very bad things to me, and the kind of loneliness that happens when you’re a little girl carrying something too heavy to say out loud.

I talk about my dad’s suicide one year before I went to prison. The guilt. The anger. The silence.

And I talk about how trauma and grief didn’t create my self-destruction — they just gave it gasoline.

If you’ve ever felt lonely in a room full of people…

If chaos ever felt like love…

If being needed felt safer than being alone…

This one is for you.

Follow, share, and send it to someone who needs to hear that they are not broken beyond repair.

Healing is possible.

Twelve hours.

Handcuffed to a chair.

“Just tell the truth.”

In this episode of Unchained, I share what happened during the interrogation that led to my confession — and how quickly the tone changed once they got what they needed.

I talk about being booked into my local jail, seeing familiar faces on both sides of the bars, being placed on suicide watch because I couldn’t stop crying, and being transferred to another county while I sat alone praying my mom would come.

She did.

This episode is about humiliation, loneliness, and the moment everything shifted.

Rehab wasn’t just about addiction.

It was my escape plan.

I share what it felt like to be so tangled in a toxic relationship that treatment became the only way out. I wasn’t just fighting drugs. I was fighting attachment, fear, and the version of myself that thought this was love.

This is the part of the story where I started choosing me — even if I didn’t fully understand it yet.

You ever look back at your life and think…

“What in the actual chaos was I doing?”

This episode is about the man was with before prison — aka my Olympic-level attempt at ignoring every red flag in existence.

We’re talking:

• Grief I didn’t know how to handle

• A relationship I definitely should’ve run from

• Drinking like it was a personality trait

• And me convincing myself everything was “fine”

Spoiler: it was not fine.

This is the part of my story where I was trying to make heartbreak, addiction, loss, and dysfunction somehow make logical sense… like if I just thought hard enough, it would all magically become healthy.

It didn’t.

But if you’ve ever loved the wrong person, stayed too long, or coped in ways that made things worse — welcome. Pull up a chair.

We’re healing now.

But back then? Whew. We were auditioning for chaos

This wasn’t a Netflix script.

It was my real life.

In this first episode, I take you back to the day the doors locked behind me — my first day in prison. The fear. The humiliation. The awkward moments no one prepares you for. And yes… even the parts that are almost funny now.

It was the worst field trip ever.

But it was also the beginning of the woman I’m becoming.