This conversation wrecked me in the best way. In this episode, I sit down with Melissa Methven, a mother, author, breathwork facilitator, and widow who lost her husband to suicide. Melissa shares the raw truth behind her picture-perfect life and how grief shattered and ultimately awakened her. We talk about finding purpose after loss, raising children through trauma, and the painful yet beautiful path of healing. Her courage to speak what most people hide is something I’ll never forget. If you've ever felt broken or silenced by grief, this is the episode your heart needs.

Watch the full episode on YouTube here or head to https://www.youtube.com/@RealHeidiPowell

Resources mentioned in this episode:

Melissa’s book: The Truth Behind the Smiles: https://amzn.to/4j07QFF

Melissa’s podcast: Not Alone with Melissa Sue Methven

TV segment about Melissa’s story: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7MZIqKP1U4o

Here are the key moments from the episode:

0:41 Meeting Melissa and Watching Her Rise

6:05 Her Husband’s Death by Suicide

9:17 The Day Everything Changed

13:12 The Hidden Pain Behind a “Perfect” Life

15:04 Suppressing Her Voice and the Toll on Her Health

20:02 Telling the Kids Their Dad Was Gone

26:00 Leaving Alaska to Start Fresh

33:12 Calling Her Pain a Gift

39:03 The Weight of Regret and Guilt

45:02 Why Telling the Truth Matters

54:15 Giving Her Kids Tools She Never Had

1:02:13 Living a Life of Purpose

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Connect with Melissa Methven:

Website: https://www.melissagratitude.life/

Instagram: @melissa_gratitude

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/tremblaymel

Tiktok: @melissa_gratitude

About Melissa Methven:


Mélissa-Sue Methven was born in Quebec City and raised in Vancouver, BC. In her early 20s, she became a flight attendant, flying globally on commercial and private jets, including trips with celebrities and a U.S. president. In 2006, she moved to Wasilla, Alaska, to be with her husband, Scott, and later became a dental hygienist. After Scott’s passing in 2022, Mélissa, now a widowed mother of two, has devoted her life to helping others navigate grief, reclaim their voice, and live with purpose. Her work is rooted in healing, truth-telling, and empowering others to rise from their deepest pain.

When I first opened up about my experience with ketamine-assisted therapy, I wasn’t sure how it would be received, but the response was overwhelming. So many of you reached out, curious, hopeful, and ready to heal. In this episode, I sit down with my dear friend, Molly Thankful, founder of Arizona Wellness and an integrative health practitioner who has changed my life. We talk about trauma, healing, neuroplasticity, and the sacred power of ketamine therapy when done safely and intentionally. This is personal. It’s raw. And if you’ve been silently struggling, I hope this gives you a new way forward.

Curious about ketamine-assisted therapy? I’m hosting a private women’s retreat with Molly and her medical team in Arizona, June 26-29—a safe space to reconnect, release, and rewire. If this episode stirred something in you, this might be your moment. For more info, CLICK HERE or visit https://rewireexperience.com/.

Watch the full episode on YouTube here or head to https://www.youtube.com/@RealHeidiPowell

Book talked about on this episode: Soundtracks (Jon Acuff) https://amzn.to/47WV2KU

Here are the key moments from the episode:

2:47 Introducing Molly Thankful & Arizona Wellness

6:42 Why This is More Than Just Ketamine

10:35 How Ketamine Creates Neuroplasticity

15:15 Six-Session Ketamine Protocol

22:34 Awareness and Rewiring Old Patterns

26:10 Control as a Trauma Response

32:04 What a Session Physically Looks Like

39:06 Pattern Mapping Before a Session

45:22 Cancer and Emotional Release

49:49 A Deep Dive Into Healing

54:03 You’re Not Alone

Connect with Heidi:


Website: https://heidipowell.net/

Email: podcast@heidipowell.net

Instagram: @realheidipowell

Facebook: Heidi Powell

YouTube: @RealHeidiPowell

Train with Heidi on her Show Up App: https://www.showupfit.app/

Connect with Molly Thankful:

Website: https://az-wellness.com/

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/molly.thankful/about

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/arizonawellnesscenter

LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/mollynelson/

About Molly Thankful:


Molly Thankful is an Integrative Health Practitioner and founder of Arizona Wellness, specializing in trauma-informed healing through ketamine-assisted therapy, functional medicine, and somatic practices. With over a decade of experience, she helps clients address the root causes of anxiety, depression, hormone imbalance, and chronic stress. Trained in gut health, detoxification, and nervous system regulation, Molly blends science-backed methods with deep emotional care. Her own journey through PCOS, pregnancy loss, and burnout fuels her passion for creating safe, sacred spaces where clients can reconnect with their bodies, rewire limiting patterns, and experience lasting transformation, physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

In this special episode of Heidi’s Lane, I’m doing something a little different. I handed over the mic and hundreds of your most heartfelt questions to my dear friend Tyler Hall, host of the Rollercoaster Podcast. Tyler is one of the best interviewers I know, and in this raw, unscripted conversation, we dive deep into topics that matter: faith, family, divorce, healing, and raising kids through it all. This episode means a lot to me. It’s honest, it’s personal, and it’s just the beginning of a new direction we’re taking together. I’m so glad you’re here for it.

Here are the key moments from the episode:

0:00 Why This Episode Is Different

2:45 The Most Asked Topic: Family

7:47 Redefining Her Relationship with God

11:03 Letting Her Kids Choose Faith

16:46 Choosing the Good in Religion

20:19 A Mother’s Honest Reflection on Each Child

28:26 When Do You Know It’s Time to Leave?

35:09 If One Person Won’t Try, It Won’t Work

40:17 Becoming a Better Partner Through It All

Connect with Heidi:

Website: https://heidipowell.net/

Email: podcast@heidipowell.net

Instagram: @realheidipowell

Facebook: Heidi Powell

YouTube: @HeidiPowellNet

Train with Heidi on her Show Up App - https://www.showupfit.app/