What felt like rock bottom became the portal to my biggest rebirth — and to a creative force I didn't know I had access to.

As I hold my custom shaped ceremonial chocolate spiral bars and one-pound bags of ceremonial cacao roses… It feels surreal. I've made products before, but never something with this much prayer woven into every layer: the visuals, the words, the recipe, the sourcing. If you feel called, I can't wait for you to experience it!

In this episode, I'm sharing the behind-the-scenes journey, the mystical seeds that were planting themselves even when I didn't know what was happening.

It truly feels like my Higher Self traveled back in time, dropped breadcrumbs, and asked me to follow symbols and signs. One of those signs was a spiral in the dirt that became the center of the brand.

Thank you for being here. I'm excited to be back podcasting. Interviews are coming, and while the cadence might be a bit fluid at first, it will be far more consistent than the past couple of years.

Inside this episode:

• The moment I made chocolate in my kitchen "just to feel better" — and how it became the most nourishing creation of my life.

• The years-long thread of ceremonial cacao weaving through my journey — from Bali to New York, from marriage to motherhood, from loss to devotion.

• My intuitively guided path to finding an ethical Peruvian cacao supplier — and why I turned down the easy option that looked perfect on paper but lacked care.

• How I learned that real spirituality looks like care — in sourcing, in communication, in how you hold every being along the way.

• The symbolism of the spiral that appeared in the forest and became the heartbeat of the brand — a living reminder of remembering, forgetting, and returning.

• The way my own name, Ksenia, holds the hidden meaning of Theoxenia — "entertaining gods through food" — and how that revealed my deeper calling to work with chocolate the main compound of which is Theobromine, "food of the Gods"

• How the channeled WANA HEY recipe came together

• What it looks like to walk the path of creative surrender — trusting that every step, delay, and detour was a piece of divine choreography.

• The 1,000-pound leap of faith: investing $40,000 of my own money, saying yes to the unknown, and birthing a brand that feels like a living prayer.

• How I'm redefining "launching" as a soft opening of a portal — an invitation to create, remember, and rise softer together.

Mentioned:

• WANA HEY Ceremonial Cacao
• JASPR Air Scrubber: Use code KSENIA for $200 off on jaspr.co

Related episode:

242. Dress Like a Prayer, Create Like a Spell: A Wild Feminine Awakening in Peru

Connect with Ksenia:

• ksenia.love

• Ksenia's email list

• Instagram @ksenia.avdulove

• YouTube Ksenia Love

• TikTok @ksenia.avdulove

• Subscribe, rate and review the podcast on Apple Podcasts

• Follow the podcast on Spotify

Does money love you? Or are you still trying to prove you're worthy of its presence?

In this deep, heart-opening episode, I sit down with spiritual guide and money healing coach Farah Orths, author of "Money Loves Me: A Spiritual Guide to Manifesting Abundance". Farah's story is nothing short of miraculous — she went from "money hates me" to becoming a channel for divine love and financial flow.

This isn't just a conversation about money. It's about healing the inner shame, grief, and conditioning that blocks us from receiving life fully — and recognizing that money is simply one expression of that life.

Whether you're struggling with scarcity, redefining your relationship with wealth, or just curious about how cacao, dance, and heartbreak fit into the abundance equation… this one is for you.

Inside this episode:

• The exact moment Farah dropped the story that "money hates me"

• Why grief is a sacred, and often missing, part of abundance

• What happened when I attended one of Farah's money ceremonies

• Farah's struggle with Pure-O OCD and how it shaped her spiritual path

• The "field of the heart" and why it's the true portal to manifestation

• How your birth story could be shaping your ability to receive

• My personal reflections on creating WANA HEY and how it's helping me come into more relational energy with money

• What it means to become a trustworthy vessel for money to flow

• Healing your lineage through movement, embodiment, and divine reparenting

• Key practices and insights from Money Loves Me that cracked me open

Insights:

🌀 "When you don't fully trust money, it doesn't fully trust you." – Ksenia

🌀 "Receiving money is an outcome of receiving life." – Farah Orths

🌀 "We've forgotten the innate sorcerer within us — the creatrix, the creator, the original architect of our lives. For so long, we've been taught that creation happens in the mind: through thoughts, visualizations, strategies. Even in spiritual spaces, the heart was often left out of the equation. But true creation doesn't begin in the mind. It begins in the heart. When we return to the field of the heart, we remember who we really are — and from that place, the miracles come." – Farah Orths

Resources:

✨ "Money Loves Me: A Spiritual Guide to Manifesting Abundance" by Farah Orths

🌹 WANA HEY Ceremonial Cacao @wanaheyrising

Connect with Ksenia:

Substack: @goodgirlprophet

Instagram @ksenia.avdulove

YouTube @ksenia.avdulove

TikTok @ksenia.avdulove

Subscribe, rate and review the podcast on Apple Podcasts

Follow the podcast on Spotify

Connect with Farah Orths:

farahorths.com

@farahorths

In this solo episode, I share the heart behind launching my Substack, Good Girl Prophet. It's a reclamation of voice, trust, and creative sovereignty after two decades of online sharing across blogs, brands, and social media.

I speak honestly about what led me here: from chasing the algorithm to listening deeply, from creating to be liked to creating from truth. This episode is about choosing resonance over performance, depth over dopamine, and remembering that you are the main dish… not just a bite-sized piece of content.

Whether you're plotting a creative escape, ditching the algorithm hamster wheel, or just tired of shrink-wrapping your soul for social media, this one's for you.

Inside this episode:

• Why Substack feels like the right next space for deeper expression

• How years of blogging, TikTok, and Breakfast Criminals shaped my creative path

• A look behind the name Good Girl Prophet — and what it means to unbrand my voice

• Why freedom doesn't come from the platform, but the energy you bring to it

• How social media can become an altar, not an algorithm

• My reflections on content, motherhood, money, style, business, and self-trust

Episode insights:

• "It's not Substack that's freeing me. It's me bringing freedom to Substack."

• "There's no one platform that saves us. What matters is the energy we bring to it."

• "Stop pretending you didn't hear the download. Just make the thing."

• "This is my bet on myself. On nonlinear paths. On truth as a business model."

• "You are not the appetizer. You are the main dish."

Connect with Ksenia:

• Substack: @goodgirlprophet

• Instagram @ksenia.avdulove

• YouTube @ksenia.avdulove

• TikTok @ksenia.avdulove

• Subscribe, rate and review the podcast on Apple Podcasts

• Follow the podcast on Spotify