In this deeply honest episode, host Matthew explores the ebb and flow of motivation while living with mental health challenges and managing medication. He opens up about the internal tug-of-war between stability and creativity, and the emotional complexity of feeling “better” but disconnected. If you’ve ever struggled to get off the couch, questioned your treatment plan, or missed your creative spark, this episode is for you. Join the conversation about what really keeps us going—and what it means to feel okay versus alive.

In this deeply personal episode of This Side of Sanity, host Matthew opens up about his battles with paranoia during manic episodes. He explores the isolating fear that everyone is watching, judging, and working against him. Matthew shares raw reflections on what it feels like inside his mind, why paranoia always seems negative, and raises thought-provoking questions about the nature of our inner voices. Tune in for an honest, vulnerable look at the mental traps of mania and what it’s like to live inside a mind at war with itself.

In this episode, Matthew opens up about his experience with schizoaffective disorder, diving into what it’s really like to live with internal voices and hallucinations. He shares how these voices differ from an internal monologue, the challenges of distinguishing reality from delusion, and the life-altering moment he realized the voices weren’t his own. From believing he was a dimensional traveler to finding relief through antipsychotic medication, this episode offers a raw and honest glimpse into a world few truly understand. Tune in for an unfiltered journey through confusion, discovery, and hope.