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  • I Thought I Was Broken. It Was Autism & ADHD.

    I Thought I Was Broken. It Was Autism & ADHD.
    Jan 24 2026
    I spent my life waiting for the moment everything would finally make sense.

    A spider bite. A transformation. Proof that I wasn’t broken - just becoming.

    Instead, I became the person who walked every path that wasn’t meant for them.

    The rebel. The truth-teller. The one who felt too much, gave too much, burned out, rebuilt, and did it all over again.

    I healed my trauma. I built communities. I held everyone else with care I never learned to give myself.

    And even in my most stable, grounded season… something still felt missing.

    This episode is something different - it is about that missing piece. It’s about growing up feeling out of sync with the world. About being told you’re too much and not enough at the same time.

    About loving deeply, feeling intensely, thinking relentlessly - and never finding the off switch. It’s about late discovery. About realizing that what you called rebellion, sensitivity, chaos, or a “broken personality” had a name all along.

    Autism and ADHD.

    No dramatic transformation. No green goo. No curse lifted. Just clarity.

    And with it, compassion - for the past versions of yourself who were trying so hard to survive in a world not built for them.

    If you’ve ever felt like:
    you don’t fit into the life everyone else seems to understand
    healing didn’t make you feel whole
    your brain feels like both a superpower and a curse
    you were made for something more, but didn’t know what …

    This is for you. You were never broken. You were never wrong. You were always whole. And if no one’s told you yet - I see you. ✨

    Topics in this episode:
    late-diagnosed autism
    ADHD
    neurodivergence
    healing & identity
    being “too much”
    burnout & rebuilding
    finding your people 🖤

    You’re not alone. If this resonated, feel free to like, share, or leave a comment. Your words matter here.
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    13 min
  • Why YouTube Is Burying Creators Right Now

    Why YouTube Is Burying Creators Right Now
    Jan 8 2026
    That strange silence. That disappearance.
    And I want to talk about what’s really happening, why so many brilliant voices aren’t being seen, and why it’s not a personal failure.

    Why YouTube Is Hiding Creators.
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    12 min
  • Inside the Porn Industry: Parents, Testing, and the Business of OnlyFans with Evie Rees

    Inside the Porn Industry: Parents, Testing, and the Business of OnlyFans with Evie Rees
    Oct 19 2025
    The adult industry is one of the most judged and least understood creative spaces.
    This week I talk with Evie Rees - award winning - porn actor and OnlyFans creator, about what really happens behind the camera - the community, testing, the financial ups and downs, and whether it’s all worth it.
    We unpack the balance between empowerment and exhaustion, visibility and censorship, and the emotional realities of a job that’s constantly misunderstood.

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    35 min
  • Torn between organised faith and your own spiritual path? - Religion vs Spirituality

    Torn between organised faith and your own spiritual path? - Religion vs Spirituality
    Oct 12 2025
    Where does religion end and spirituality begin? Does organised faith have room for ecstatic personal experience? In this episode I trace my path from an Orthodox childhood to an unplanned encounter with Kali Ma that shifted everything.

    I confess I once judged meditation, crystals and talk of energy, and I share how that judgement slowly gave way to curiosity, humility and practice. We unpack the tension between ritual and mysticism and consider how a single experience can rewrite long held stories about the divine. If you have ever felt torn between faith and curiosity, this episode is for you.
    Subscribe for more conversations that question the rules we were taught.

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    27 min
  • What is Gender? Do you know yours?

    What is Gender? Do you know yours?
    Oct 5 2025
    Join me and my friend as we unpack what gender feels like in everyday life. We talk about sex and gender, what being non binary can look like, and how to show up better for trans and gender nonconforming people.
    Expect personal stories, small practical tips, and plenty of moments that might make you rethink what you thought you knew.

    Definitions:
    AFAB - Assigned female at birth. A medical label given when someone is born based on anatomy. AMAB - Assigned male at birth. A medical label given at birth based on anatomy.
    Sex versus gender:
    Sex refers to biological attributes such as chromosomes, hormones, and anatomy. Gender refers to social roles, identity, and how someone experiences themselves as masculine, feminine, both, neither, or something else entirely. People often mix these up, but they are not the same thing.
    Non binary - An umbrella term for people whose gender is not only male or female. Someone who is non binary might use they them pronouns or other pronouns, and may express their gender in many different ways.
    Cis - Short for cisgender. A cis person’s gender identity matches the sex they were assigned at birth. Being cis is a common experience but not the only one.
    Gender nonconforming - When a person’s expression or presentation does not follow cultural expectations for masculinity or femininity.
    Trans - Short for transgender. A trans person has a gender identity that is different from the sex they were assigned at birth. Trans experiences are varied and can include social transition, medical transition, or none of those things.

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    43 min
  • Depression & Suicidal Thoughts: When You Don’t Want to Live Anymore.

    Depression & Suicidal Thoughts: When You Don’t Want to Live Anymore.
    Sep 27 2025
    In this episode of The Rules Were Never Real, I share my lived experience of planning to end my life and what helped me hold on. This is not therapy or advice, but a true story of survival, suicidal thoughts, feeling alone, calling Samaritans, the reality of NHS waiting lists, and the power of reaching out to friends. If you’re searching for hope, or need to hear from someone who’s been there and stayed, this episode is for you.

    • Samaritans 116 123 free and confidential any time. Webchat is being introduced in stages. Samaritans+1 • SHOUT text SHOUT to 85258 free and confidential any time. Shout 85258+1 • NHS 111 choose the mental health option for urgent support in England. nhs.uk • CALM 0800 58 58 58 from 5pm to midnight every day, phone and webchat. thecalmzone.net • PAPYRUS HOPELINE247 for under 35s and anyone worried about a young person. Call 0800 068 4141, text 07860 039967, email pat@papyrus-uk.org. nhs.uk • Outside the UK use Find A Helpline or Befrienders Worldwide. In the United States call, text, or chat 988.

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    28 min
  • The Rules of 'I Do" - Calling off a Wedding

    The Rules of 'I Do" - Calling off a Wedding
    Sep 20 2025
    If you are engaged and something feels off, this episode is for you. I tell the story of calling off my wedding in real time and unpack the noisy pressures that push people toward saying yes. We talk about the subtle signs that your reasons for marrying are not your own, practical steps to slow down, and honest questions to ask your partner and yourself. This is not about shame. This is about giving yourself permission to choose with clarity and courage.

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    35 min
  • Escaping the 9 to 5

    Escaping the 9 to 5
    Sep 13 2025
    Quitting a stable career and stepping into the unknown. This is the story of how I walked away from what was expected of me, from a life that wasn’t my vision but the path most of us accept as the only option. Self-employment is scary, but it can also be the option you’ve been too afraid to consider.
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    21 min