“Real power is speaking your desire without being attached to the outcome.”

What if the real power isn’t getting what you want but having the courage to ask for it?

In this episode, Dennis Hull joins to talk about sovereignty, desire, boundaries, rejection, and why attachment to outcome quietly runs so many of our lives. We unpack the philosophy behind tantra play spaces, the difference between safety and sovereignty, and why real community can’t be built online alone.

This is a conversation about pleasure without performance, asking without expectation, and learning how to stay present even when you hear no.

Messy. Honest. Deeply human.

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Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/itsdennishull/
Website: https://www.dennishull.com/

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"Trauma is not what happens to us, but what we hold inside in the absence of an empathetic witness. The salvation, then, is to be found in the body..."

What if trauma isn’t something to heal or release but something that formed intelligently in response to life?

In this episode, I sit down with Will Rezin of Trauma & Somatics for a deep, grounding conversation on trauma, attachment, procrastination, nervous system regulation, and why so many of us never actually feel completion, only “what’s next?”

This episode isn’t about fixing yourself. It’s about understanding how you formed and what becomes possible when survival isn’t the only goal anymore.

🎧 Timestamps:
00:00 – Intro & why this conversation matters
02:00 – What trauma actually is (and isn’t)
08:45 – Outcomes, productivity, & pressure to perform
12:30 – Why completion never lands
15:40 – Attachment styles in the body
19:30 – Anxious vs avoidant vs disorganized
24:20 – Earned secure & nervous system repatterning
28:40 – Story follows state
31:00 – Why “safe space” language can backfire
40:20 – Boundaries as skills, not traits
44:00 – Dogs, co-regulation, & Boudreaux
49:30 – Trauma & Somatics trainings

Free Anthony de Mello Lecture: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1pttMPB1EPdXjIkj3q-ZQ6GCuOQfhGa5k/view

The next cohort of Attachment & Somatics begins on Feb 13th, 2026, with the first class scheduled for Feb 16th.

The next cohort of Trauma & Somatics begins May 2026.

🌐 Connect with Will:
https://traumaandsomatics.com
https://www.instagram.com/willrezin
https://www.instagram.com/traumaandsomatics
https://substack.com/@traumaandsomatics
https://traumaandsomatics.com/the-somara-collective/ (Membership)

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“The longer you stay on the wrong train, the more expensive it is to get home.”

In this episode, I sit down with Leola, tantra teacher, bestselling author, and host of Talk Tantra To Me, for a conversation that gently roasts manifestation culture, flirts with devotion, and asks an interesting question: What if desire is how God speaks to us?

We explore:
- Why your desires are rarely about the thing (sorry)
- How control issues are often just trust wounds in a trench coat
- The difference between egoic craving and soul-level longing
- Why “manifesting harder” might actually be anxiety in lingerie
- How surrender doesn’t mean giving up — it means giving over
- God as lover, leader, and the one who may lovingly wreck your vision board
- Why the body is still the most avoided spiritual teacher in the room
- And what happens when you stop seducing outcomes and start seducing truth...

This episode is for you if..
- You’re tired of forcing things to happen
- You secretly suspect desire isn’t the villain
- Your vision board needs a gentle exorcism
- Or you’re ready to trust something wiser than your ego

It’s deep. It’s funny. It may lovingly call you out.

Listen if you’re ready to stop begging the universe & start having an honest conversation with it.

🎧 Press play. Listen to the whisper...don't wait for the yell.

Timestamps:
01:30 – What’s making Leola feel most alive right now
06:30 – The Three-Minute Game (intimacy exercise)
09:45 – God as a domme + resistance to surrender
13:20 – Finding God in the body
16:00 – Desire vs. egoic craving
19:50 – Becoming a slave to desire
25:40 – Receiving love & nervous system healing
30:15 – Relationship patterns & self-audit
33:50 – When a vision dies, grief, & trust
38:45 – Trusting the nudge
44:30 – Devotion through the tantric lens
50:20 – If God had a dating profile…

Connect with Leola:
Website: talktantratome.com
IG: https://www.instagram.com/talktantratome

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