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  • 022 – Neurospicy and Never Alone with Eli Trier

    022 – Neurospicy and Never Alone with Eli Trier
    Apr 16 2026
    What if the thing that makes you feel like an outsider is actually the key to real belonging?We spend a lot of time talking about how to build community — how to grow it, structure it, and sustain it. But we don’t talk nearly enough about what it feels like to be the person on the outside of it. The one who doesn’t quite fit, who feels like “too much,” or who has learned to edit themselves just to stay in the room.In this episode of Find Your Freaks, Tonya Kubo sits down with Eli Trier — artist, writer, and self-described “dopamine dealer” — to explore what it means to live as an outsider and how that experience can become the foundation for something powerful. As a neuroqueer, AuDHD creator, Eli doesn’t just make art. She creates spaces where people who have always felt different finally feel seen and understood.Eli shares how years of feeling “too much” shaped her work and her perspective on belonging. Instead of trying to fit into spaces that never quite worked, she began building her own — spaces where otherness isn’t something to hide, but something to celebrate.Together, they challenge a common assumption about community: that belonging comes from fitting in. Because in the end, real belonging isn’t about being tolerated. It’s about being recognized.In This Episode, We ExploreWhat it actually feels like to move through the world as an outsiderThe hidden cost of trying to “pass” as normalWhy being “too much” is often a context problem, not a personal flawHow Eli uses art to create emotional refuge and recognitionThe difference between being included and truly belongingWhat community builders get wrong about inclusionHow showing up fully creates permission for others to do the sameEpisode Highlights[03:15] Why Eli’s “freaks” are the weird, creative, non-traditional souls[09:40] What it means to be neuroqueer and AuDHD in a world built for sameness[17:20] The experience of being “too much” and learning to self-edit[26:10] Why fitting in can feel safer… but costs more than we think[34:45] How Eli’s art creates a sense of recognition and belonging[42:30] The difference between inclusion and true belonging[51:00] Why community builders need to rethink what “safe space” actually means[1:02:15] The power of showing up fully and going firstMeet Our GuestElinor Trier is a neuroqueer AuDHD artist, writer, podcaster, YouTuber, dopamine dealer, and founder of Elinor Trier Studio and Zuzu’s Haus of Cats, where she creates artwork that celebrates “otherness,” reminding you that you’re not the “odd one out,” you’re “one of a kind.” Her work lives in private collections worldwide and has been featured in multiple media outlets, including the Nautilus Silver Award-winning book Creatrix: She Who Makes. She reads ten books a week, snorts when she laughs, and might actually be a pile of cats in a sparkly trench coat.Meet Your HostTonya Kubo is a community strategist, writer, and rebel with a cause: helping people find the place where they truly belong. She’s spent nearly two decades building online spaces that feel more like chosen family than comment sections, and she’s not afraid to call out the fluff in favor of real connection. As the founder of Find Your Freaks, Tonya brings together unconventional thinkers, builders, and bridge-makers who believe that “normal” was never the point. When she’s not hosting the show, she’s raising two daughters, leading client communities, and making meaning out of the mess.Key Quotes“You’re not the odd one out. You’re one of a kind.” — Eli Trier“Being ‘too much’ usually just means you’re in the wrong room.” — Eli Trier“Belonging isn’t about being tolerated. It’s about being recognized.” — Eli Trier“The goal isn’t to become more palatable. It’s to find the places where you already make sense.” — Eli TrierResources & MentionsElinor Trier StudioZuzu’s Haus of CatsCreatrix: She Who MakesSupport the ShowIf Find Your Freaks matters to you, consider buying us a coffee to keep the show ad-free. Every dollar supports production so more weirdos can find their people.Find Your Freaks merchandise is available through Abilities and Attitudes.Let’s Stay FreakyFacebook GroupLinkedInInstagramPodcast HubWhat’s NextThe spaces that feel safest aren’t the ones where everyone fits in. In the next episode, Tonya explores what it really means to go first, why being the “freakiest” one in the room sets the tone for everyone else, and how showing up fully creates the kind of permission real belonging is built on.
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    31 min
  • 021 – The Community That Runs Without You

    021 – The Community That Runs Without You
    Apr 2 2026
    Why the strongest communities aren’t built around leadership but around shared ownershipMost communities don’t fail because people stop caring.They fail because too much care is required from too few people.In this solo episode, Tonya Kubo explores what actually makes a community sustainable and why the traditional, leader-centered model quietly sets communities up to collapse. What looks like strong leadership often creates hidden fragility, where everything depends on one person showing up, holding it together, and carrying the weight.Drawing on Stacey’s real-world example from a military spouse community, Tonya breaks down what happens when belonging is built into the structure instead of assigned as a responsibility. Instead of hosting and managing every event, Stacey’s model distributes ownership, allowing members to create, lead, and sustain connection themselves.Tonya also challenges one of the most common assumptions in community-building: that disengagement is caused by apathy. In reality, it is often the opposite. People care, but when the burden is too high or the ownership is not shared, they step back instead of stepping in. If your community feels dependent on you, or if you have ever wondered whether what you are building could last without you, this episode offers a powerful reframe of what it takes to create something that actually endures.You’ll hear how:Communities don’t fail from apathy, but from uneven distribution of laborBurnout in leadership is often a design flaw, not a personal failureSelf-sustaining communities differ from self-running onesStacey’s model distributes ownership without losing structureCommunities built around personality are inherently fragilePurpose-driven communities create continuity beyond the founderDelegating tasks is not the same as transferring ownershipShared responsibility creates stronger, more resilient belongingEpisode Highlights[02:00] The question that reveals whether your community is built to last[06:30] Why communities don’t actually fail from apathy[12:15] How Stacey’s model distributes ownership from the start[18:40] What happens when everything depends on one leader[25:10] The difference between self-sustaining and self-running communities[31:45] Why personality-driven communities are fragile[38:20] How purpose creates continuity beyond the founder[45:00] Delegation vs. true ownership and why it matters[51:30] One simple shift to start redistributing responsibility[57:00] The question every community leader needs to answerResources & MentionsEpisode 020 – Interview with Stacey MorganMargaret Marcuson, Sustainable MinistryThe Secret to Thriving Online Communities (Facebook Group)Clutter-Free Academy by Kathi LippMeet Your HostTonya Kubo is a community strategist, marketing consultant, and rebel with a cause: helping people find the place where they truly belong. For nearly two decades, she’s built online spaces that feel less like comment sections and more like chosen family. She’s the fixer you call when your Facebook group has gone straight-up Lord of the Flies and the bouncer at the door of internet nonsense. As the host of Find Your Freaks, Tonya brings together unconventional thinkers and bridge-builders who know “normal” was never the point. Her favorite spaces? The ones where the freak flags fly high.Support the ShowIf Find Your Freaks matters to you, help us keep it ad-free by buying us a coffee (or two!). Every dollar goes to production so more weirdos can find their people.You can purchase Find Your Freaks merchandise online through Abilities and Attitudes.Let’s Stay FreakyFacebook GroupLinkedInInstagramPodcast HubWhat’s NextTonya sits down with Eli Trier, an artist, writer, podcaster, and self-described dopamine dealer whose work is a love letter to weirdos and misfits. As a neuroqueer, AuDHD creator, Eli shares what it means to build spaces where being different is not just accepted, but celebrated—and why belonging starts with making room for the outsider.
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    34 min
  • 020 – The Courage to Go First with Stacey Morgan

    020 – The Courage to Go First with Stacey Morgan
    Mar 19 2026
    What happens when the system meant to create community quietly disappears?For decades, military spouse networks functioned as powerful support systems. They helped families navigate deployments, relocations, and the emotional weight of military life.But as cultural expectations changed — and the volunteer structures holding those networks together disappeared — many military families found themselves facing a new challenge: isolation.In this episode of Find Your Freaks, Tonya Kubo sits down with Stacey Morgan, a U.S. Army spouse of 25 years and leadership coach with The MomCo, to explore what happens when community breaks down and how everyday people can rebuild it.Stacey shares how moving to a new duty station revealed just how fractured military spouse networks had become. Instead of waiting for someone else to fix it, she and two other spouses created a radically simple model for rebuilding community: no dues, no drama, and member-led interest groups.Their approach flips traditional leadership models upside down and reminds us of something simple but powerful: Community isn’t something we consume. It’s something we create.And sometimes the bravest thing you can do is go first.In This Episode, We ExploreWhy traditional military spouse support networks have collapsed in many placesHow isolation impacts military families and even military retentionThe surprising role community plays in resilience during deploymentsStacey’s radically simple model for rebuilding communityWhy waiting to be rescued keeps people lonelyHow small interest groups can spark real connectionThe courage it takes to introduce yourself firstEpisode Highlights[02:10] Why Stacey’s “freaks” are military spouses and the unique bond they share[08:30] How traditional military spouse support systems quietly fell apart[15:00] Why community connection impacts military family retention[26:00] The hidden gaps created when volunteer support systems disappeared[33:00] Stacey’s new model for community: “No dues, no drama”[41:30] How small interest groups spark real connection[53:00] The story behind Stacey’s book The Astronaut’s Wife[1:03:00] The life lesson that changed everything: no one is coming to rescue you[1:07:20] Where to start if you want to build community in your own lifeMeet Our GuestStacey Morgan is an Army spouse of 25 years, mom of four, speaker, and author of The Astronaut’s Wife: How Launching My Husband into Outer Space Changed the Way I Live on Earth. Stacey serves on staff with The MomCo as an executive leadership coach, membership manager, and lead for military and online groups. She and her family are currently stationed at White Sands Missile Test Range in New Mexico.Meet Your HostTonya Kubo is a community strategist, writer, and rebel with a cause: helping people find the place where they truly belong. She’s spent nearly two decades building online spaces that feel more like chosen family than comment sections, and she’s not afraid to call out the fluff in favor of real connection. As the founder of Find Your Freaks, Tonya brings together unconventional thinkers, builders, and bridge-makers who believe that “normal” was never the point. When she’s not hosting the show, she’s raising two daughters, leading client communities, and making meaning out of the mess.Key Quotes“There’s no rescuer coming for you. And as sad as that sounds, there’s freedom in it.” — Stacey Morgan“You can’t wait for someone to show up and tell you what to do. Community has to be built by the people who want it.” — Stacey Morgan“The future of community has to be light, nimble, and member-led.” — Stacey Morgan“Enough of this culture of complaining about what doesn’t exist. If you want it, be willing to host it.” — Stacey Morgan“You have to get out of your house. No one is going to come knocking on your door.” — Stacey MorganResources & MentionsThe Astronaut’s Wife: How Launching My Husband into Outer Space Changed the Way I Live on Earth by Stacey MorganStacey Morgan (official website)The MomCoBlue Star FamiliesMilitary Spouse Advocacy NetworkMarco Polo AppSharon McMahonSupport the ShowIf Find Your Freaks matters to you, consider buying us a coffee to keep the show ad-free. Every dollar supports production so more weirdos can find their people.Find Your Freaks merchandise is available through Abilities and Attitudes.Let’s Stay FreakyFacebook GroupLinkedInInstagramPodcast HubWhat’s NextThe strongest communities aren’t built around one person. In the next episode, Tonya explores why the best communities are designed to survive their founders, how Stacey’s model flips leadership on its head, and what happens when belonging becomes part of the structure instead of the job description.
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    1 h
  • 019 – The Intentional Design of Belonging

    019 – The Intentional Design of Belonging
    Mar 5 2026
    Why strong communities aren’t built through activity, but through shared responsibility and trust.Most communities don’t fail because of bad content, the wrong platform, or even the wrong people.They fail because of design.In this solo episode, Tonya Kubo explores why many communities appear active but still feel shallow or fragile. High engagement doesn’t always mean people feel connected—and connection alone doesn’t guarantee belonging. What actually sustains a community is interdependence: the sense that members rely on one another and that their presence truly matters. Using business strategist Gwen Bortner’s client ecosystem as a real-world example, Tonya breaks down the design decisions that create durable belonging. Instead of organizing people by stage, industry, or hierarchy, Gwen curates for shared values, protects the culture of the container early, and intentionally encourages members to rely on each other—not just on the leader.Tonya also addresses a harder truth: communities often fail because leaders unintentionally centralize power. When everything flows through one person, the group may look lively but remains fragile. True belonging only emerges when leadership distributes trust and members become necessary to one another.If your community feels loud but lonely, engaged but disconnected, this episode offers a powerful reframing of what it actually takes to build spaces where people matter.You’ll hear how:Communities often fail due to design, not engagement levelsConnection is required for belonging—but they are not the same thingBelonging forms through interdependence, not proximityCurating for shared values strengthens cohesion more than grouping by stageProtecting the container early preserves culture laterMember-to-member reliance deepens trust and relational densityOver-centralized leadership creates dependency instead of belongingSustainable communities distribute trust and shared ownershipTimestamp Highlights0:00 – 4:45 Why most communities fail due to design, not engagement4:46 – 9:20 Connection vs. belonging—and why the distinction matters9:21 – 16:40 How Gwen Bortner unintentionally designed belonging into her client community16:41 – 23:10 Curating members by values instead of business stage23:11 – 28:45 Protecting the container and maintaining culture through selection28:46 – 33:30 Why member-to-member reliance creates relational density33:31 – 40:10 The danger of leader-centered communities40:11 – 46:00 When control replaces stewardship—and communities collapse46:01 – 52:30 Why belonging comes from being necessary, not visible52:31 – 57:10 Designing communities where trust transfers and leadership distributesResources & MentionsEpisode 18 – Small Circle, Big Impact with Gwen BortnerThe Business You Really Want PodcastClutter-Free Academy by Kathi LippRachel Allen – Community support for spouses of incarcerated individualsNikki James Zellner – Carbon monoxide safety advocacyMeet Your HostTonya Kubo is a community strategist, marketing consultant, and rebel with a cause: helping people find the place where they truly belong. For nearly two decades, she’s built online spaces that feel less like comment sections and more like chosen family. She’s the fixer you call when your Facebook group has gone straight-up Lord of the Flies and the bouncer at the door of internet nonsense. As the host of Find Your Freaks, Tonya brings together unconventional thinkers and bridge-builders who know “normal” was never the point. Her favorite spaces? The ones where the freak flags fly high.Support the ShowIf Find Your Freaks matters to you, help us keep it ad-free by buying us a coffee (or two!). Every dollar goes to production so more weirdos can find their people.You can purchase Find Your Freaks merchandise online through Abilities and Attitudes.Let’s Stay FreakyFacebook GroupLinkedInInstagramPodcast HubWhat’s NextTonya talks with Stacey Morgan, an Army spouse of 25 years, mom of four, speaker, and author of The Astronaut’s Wife. Stacey shares how launching her husband into space reshaped the way she approaches fear, leadership, and going first. Together, they explore what it means to build connection and lead with courage in communities shaped by constant change.
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    36 min
  • 018 – Small Circle, Big Impact with Gwen Bortner

    018 – Small Circle, Big Impact with Gwen Bortner
    Feb 19 2026

    Why shared values matter more than size when building real community

    Some freaks build massive platforms.

    Stages.

    Email lists.

    Follower counts.

    And then there are the freaks who build quietly — curating small circles rooted in shared values, deep trust, and sustainable connection.

    In this episode of Find Your Freaks, Tonya Kubo sits down with business strategist and operations expert Gwen Bortner to explore what community looks like when you opt out of hype, funnels, and “bigger is better” messaging — and choose intentional depth instead.

    Gwen has spent over four decades building businesses, forming networks, and supporting women entrepreneurs. And while she doesn’t run a massive membership or chase viral growth, she has cultivated something many people secretly crave: meaningful, values-driven connection that sustains itself.

    Together, Tonya and Gwen unpack what makes a community truly work, why shared values matter more than shared industries, and how defining success on your own terms changes everything.

    If you’ve ever felt pressure to scale bigger when what you really want is deeper — this conversation offers a grounded, confident alternative.

    Episode Highlights

    [04:15] Why being “smart” doesn’t mean being smart at everything

    [11:30] How shared values create stronger connection than shared revenue levels

    [18:40] Why curated small groups bond faster than large memberships

    [24:10] The confidence required to build “small on purpose”

    [31:55] Why sustainable success matters more than being the best

    [39:20] What happens when communities connect independently of the leader

    [46:05] How to ask better questions than “What do you do?”

    [52:30] One simple shift to help you find your people offline

    When Smaller Becomes Stronger

    Gwen challenges the assumption that community must be massive to matter.

    Her approach is simple but powerful: curate small groups around shared values — not shared industries, revenue levels, or status.

    In her quarterly planning retreats, women from wildly different business models and financial stages gather. What binds them isn’t similarity in structure — it’s alignment in values. Creativity. Kindness. Integrity. A desire to leave the world better than they found it.

    The result? A community that sustains itself — even outside the container Gwen creates.

    Private chats flourish. Partnerships form. Support extends beyond the structured event.

    Not because it’s engineered.

    Because it’s aligned.

    Success Defined by You

    One of the most liberating themes in this episode is Gwen’s clarity around success.

    She doesn’t chase being the biggest.

    She doesn’t need to be the best.

    She doesn’t measure her worth by follower counts.

    Instead, she focuses on being consistently good — and building a business she can sustain without burnout.

    In a world obsessed with scaling up, Gwen reminds us that confidence comes from knowing your own definition of success — and refusing to borrow someone else’s metrics.

    The Power of Values in Connection

    Perhaps the most practical takeaway from this conversation is this:

    If you want to find your people, stop asking what they do.

    Ask what they love about what they do.

    That one question reveals values. And values are the fastest way to determine alignment.

    Community doesn’t form around résumés.

    It forms around meaning.

    Meet Our Guest

    Gwen Bortner is a business strategist, operations expert, and trusted advisor with more than 40 years of experience across multiple industries. She helps women entrepreneurs define...
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    40 min
  • 017 – More than Participation, Belonging is Permission to Matter

    017 – More than Participation, Belonging is Permission to Matter
    Feb 5 2026

    Why activity isn’t the same thing as impact—and why belonging begins where responsibility starts.

    Belonging doesn’t come from being visible.

    It comes from knowing that if you weren’t there, something real would be missing.

    In this solo episode, Tonya Kubo reflects on a moment from her conversation with Jeff Yoshimi that wouldn’t let her go: people stay engaged when their effort actually changes something.

    From that insight, Tonya unpacks a distinction many communities get wrong—the difference between participation and contribution. Liking posts, showing up to meetings, and staying active can create the appearance of belonging without ever creating real agency. And when communities confuse visibility for value, people drift—not because they don’t care, but because nothing they do seems to matter.

    This episode explores why participation is safe and scalable, why contribution is risky and uneven, and why belonging forms not through sameness, but through shared responsibility. Tonya also speaks directly to community builders and leaders, examining what it ethically demands to steward spaces—especially when you’re managing communities you’re not personally part of.

    If you’ve ever felt invisible in a crowded room, burned out in a highly “engaged” space, or frustrated that your efforts never seem to change the outcome, this episode names what’s really happening—and why it’s not a personal failure.

    You’ll hear how:

    1. Participation measures presence, but contribution changes systems
    2. Visibility can be mistaken for value—and why that erodes belonging
    3. People disengage when effort has no consequence
    4. Belonging forms through trust, not inclusion alone
    5. Uneven impact makes contribution emotionally risky
    6. Communities fail when they protect comfort instead of meaning
    7. Ethical community stewardship centers member agency over control
    8. Belonging doesn’t require sameness—it requires responsibility

    Timestamp Highlights
    1. 0:00 – 4:30 Why engagement doesn’t equal belonging
    2. 4:31 – 9:10 The insight from gaming that reframed everything
    3. 9:11 – 14:45 Participation vs. contribution—and why we confuse them
    4. 14:46 – 19:30 Why people drift when nothing they do matters
    5. 19:31 – 25:20 The emotional risk of uneven impact
    6. 25:21 – 31:40 Designing communities where effort has consequence
    7. 31:41 – 38:10 Stewardship, power, and managing communities you’re not part of
    8. 38:11 – 43:50 Protecting pathways for agency instead of comfort
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    53 min
  • 016 – Gaming Cancer: Belonging Beyond the Boundaries with Jeff Yoshimi

    016 – Gaming Cancer: Belonging Beyond the Boundaries with Jeff Yoshimi
    Jan 22 2026
    How play, science, and grief come together to create unexpected communitySome freaks show up in obvious places.Labs. Universities. Gaming consoles.And then there are the freaks who live at the intersections — where research meets play, grief meets creativity, and community forms in unexpected ways.In this episode of Find Your Freaks, Tonya Kubo sits down with philosopher, cognitive scientist, and systems thinker Jeff Yoshimi, a professor at University of California, Merced, to explore how video games and citizen science can do more than entertain — they can save lives.Jeff’s book Gaming Cancer was born out of personal loss, professional curiosity, and a refusal to accept helplessness as the final answer. After cancer touched his family in devastating ways, Jeff began asking a radical question:What if everyday people — gamers, designers, artists, marketers — could meaningfully contribute to cancer research without needing a lab coat?Together, Tonya and Jeff explore how games tap into our deep wiring as problem-solving creatures, why motivation works differently when the challenge is the reward, and how belonging can form when people from wildly different worlds come together around a shared mission.If you’ve ever felt powerless in the face of a massive problem — or wondered whether your skills could actually matter — this conversation offers a hopeful, grounded, and deeply human reframe.Episode Highlights[05:40] Why humans are wired to solve problems — and how games activate that instinct[10:55] How game design creates intrinsic motivation (and why homework can’t compete)[16:30] The moment Gaming Cancer was born during a sleepless night at Stanford[22:45] Citizen science explained: how everyday players can contribute to real research[28:10] How the RNA-design game Eterna helped advance vaccine research[35:20] Why designers and marketers are essential to scientific progress[41:50] What happens when grief, play, and purpose exist in the same space[49:05] Why trying something — even without guaranteed success — still matters[55:40] What to do if you want to help but don’t know where to startWhen Games Become a Way to Fight CancerJeff explains that games aren’t just distractions — they’re beautifully engineered systems that reward curiosity, persistence, and creative problem-solving.When scientific challenges are embedded into game mechanics, players can unknowingly contribute to real discoveries simply by doing what humans do best: trying to solve the puzzle in front of them.One powerful example comes from Eterna, a game where players helped design RNA molecules — contributions that played a role in developing coronavirus vaccines stable at room temperature. That’s not hypothetical impact. That’s real science shaped by collective effort.From Helplessness to ActionCancer often leaves people searching for something they can do.Fundraising. Awareness. Advocacy. Prevention.Jeff suggests a fifth path: contribution through skill.Artists can design.Marketers can attract players.Developers can build systems.Gamers can play — and solve.Instead of asking people to leave their talents behind, citizen-science games invite them to bring all of who they are into the fight.Why Trying Still Matters (Even Without Guarantees)One of the most grounding truths in this conversation is simple:You don’t need certainty to justify action.Jeff is clear — most scientific progress is incremental. But reframing problems through games can spark new perspectives, increase scientific literacy, and sometimes unlock breakthroughs no one could have predicted.At the very least, everyone involved learns more. And sometimes, that’s how progress begins.Meet Our GuestJeff Yoshimi is a philosopher, cognitive scientist, and professor at the University of California, Merced. His work spans neural networks, visualization, and systems thinking. After cancer deeply impacted his family, Jeff wrote Gaming Cancer to explore how games, citizen science, and collective intelligence can accelerate research and restore a sense of agency in the face of overwhelming problems.Meet Your HostTonya Kubo is a community strategist and marketing consultant known for building digital spaces that feel like chosen family. As host of Find Your Freaks, she brings together unconventional thinkers who know “normal” was never the point — and who believe that belonging is built through honesty and human connection.Key Quotes“We are problem-solving creatures — games tap directly into that instinct.” — Jeff Yoshimi“You don’t have to be a scientist to contribute to science.” — Jeff Yoshimi“Even if it doesn’t lead directly to a cure, learning more is never wasted.” — Jeff Yoshimi“Belonging can happen when very different worlds collide around a shared purpose.” — Tonya KuboResources & MentionsGaming Cancer — Jeff YoshimiEterna — RNA-design citizen science gameZooniverse — Citizen science ...
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    33 min
  • 015 – Holding It Together Is Not the Same as Having It Together

    015 – Holding It Together Is Not the Same as Having It Together
    Jan 8 2026

    Why looking “fine” can be the loneliest place to be.

    Some of the freakiest people you’ll ever meet don’t stand out at all.

    They blend in. They’re competent, reliable, polished. The ones everyone depends on.

    And quietly, they’re barely holding it together.

    In this solo follow-up episode, Tonya Kubo reflects on her recent conversation with Rachel Alexandria to explore the hidden cost of being the strong friend, the capable leader, the one who never seems to need help.

    This episode is for the high performers who carry what Rachel calls “secret messes”—the overwhelm, anxiety, and emotional labor hidden behind competence and credibility. Tonya unpacks the difference between having it together and holding it together, why competence often becomes armor, and how looking fine can train people not to check on you.

    If you’ve ever been praised for being “so put together” while quietly falling apart, this one is for you.

    You’ll hear how:

    1. Holding it together often looks exactly like having it together—until it doesn’t
    2. Competence can become a coping mechanism, not a sign of stability
    3. High performers are often invisible inside their own excellence
    4. Hyper-responsibility is learned early and rewarded later (at a cost)
    5. The strong friend rarely asks for help—and why that’s not a character flaw
    6. You don’t have to collapse to deserve care
    7. Making yourself easy to say no to can help others feel safe saying yes
    8. One honest sentence can open the door to real support

    Timestamp Highlights
    1. 0:00 – 3:10 Holding it together vs. actually being okay
    2. 3:11 – 6:45 The curse of competence and hiding in plain sight
    3. 6:46 – 10:30 Why the “responsible one” rarely gets checked on
    4. 10:31 – 14:50 Competence as armor, not stability
    5. 14:51 – 19:20 Hyper-responsibility and growing up in emotional chaos
    6. 19:21 – 23:40 Why strong friends wait for someone to notice (and why it rarely happens)
    7. 23:41 – 27:30 “I need help” even when you don’t know what that help is
    8. 27:31 – 32:10 Being easy to say no to as a path to real connection
    9. 32:11 – 36:45 Gentle check-ins vs. pressure, pity, and forced intimacy
    10. 36:46 – 41:00 You don’t have to fall apart to deserve support
    11. 41:01 – 45:30 A simple practice for strong friends—and...
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    19 min