In this first episode of a multi-part series, Audi sits down with Ashton as she shares her story. Together, they walk through Ashton's early experiences in faith, the complicated pull of church culture, the shame she carried from childhood, and the deeply painful events that reshaped her life in ministry. This conversation explores harm, silence, survival, and the long road to healing with honesty, clarity, and compassion.

Trigger Warning: This series includes discussions of trauma within church spaces, including spiritual abuse, emotional harm, childhood trauma, and sexual abuse. Please listen with great care. Resources and Mentions:

• Ashton's Substack All of It
• Share your story at Anonymous.Church
• Follow us on Instagram or Facebook

In this episode, we sit down with licensed professional counselor, Kimberly, to talk about the blurred space between pastoral advice and actual mental health care. We explore why the difference matters, how power dynamics shape the guidance we receive, and what safe, informed care really looks like. It’s a gentle, honest conversation for anyone sorting through faith, healing, and the kinds of help that can hold us or hurt us.

Relevant Links

• Find a Licensed Professional Counselor in your area at Psychology Today.
• Good Boundaries and Goodbyes by Lysa TerKeurst
• Submit your story at Anonymous.Church
• Follow us on Facebook or Instagram

In this deeply personal and tender conversation, Audi sits down with her longtime friend Crissa to talk about what happens when both marriage and ministry unravel at the same time. Crissa shares her journey from serving in full-time ministry to suddenly facing divorce, the loss of community, and the quiet ache of rebuilding faith from the ground up. Together they talk about grief, identity, and the slow process of learning to trust yourself again.

From bathtub-cry nights to unexpected redemption, this episode explores what it means to keep showing up when the life you built no longer exists, and how healing sometimes looks like sitting in church with no makeup and a ball cap, just waiting for your heart to thaw.