Suzy Hope is adrift. She's divorced, living hand-to-mouth and hasn't been on a date in eons. Then, on the morning of her mother's funeral, a letter lands on her doormat. She recognizes the handwriting at once. It's from Johnny, her first love. Enclosed is a CD, a compilation from their time together in the '70s—'90s. Instantly Suzy longs to listen, but the hearse arrives. Now is not the moment for nostalgia.

After the wake is over, Suzy is returning teacups to the village hall in pouring rain when BAM! she is knocked down by a car speeding down the country lane. She wakes in hospital, disorientated. She thinks she can hear music and friends laughing. Feel water, freezing water, on her skin. An eerie silence, and then the screams begin...

She has been badly concussed, nonetheless, she is terrified. Her son, Cameron, and her best friend, Debs, are mystified, and Suzy's memory is full of holes. To fill in the blanks, Suzy goes online and soon she is reliving her past meeting Glenn the biker who led her a merry dance, seeing Zelda, the friend-turned-lover who showed her the power of political activism, and yearning again for Nate, the golden boy who shared her passion for rave music and ecstasy.

Yet as she relives the thrills of her youth, waves of fear grow in intensity. Will Suzy face her inner demons and learn to live and love again? And what about Johnny? Will she ever see him again, or will she be left replaying the soundtrack of a happy ending that continues to elude her?