When Rebecca Tervo awoke on January 29, 2012, it seemed like just another lazy Sunday morning. What she didn't realize was that her life and the life of her family had already been changed forever. Her 17-year-old son, Trevor, was already dead of suicide in an adjacent room, she just didn't know it yet.

The shock of another teen suicide was felt throughout the community and the schools.

This book tells how Rebecca reacted to the event that changed everything for her and her family. It was uncharted territory for her, her husband, the community and the school.

It describes the unrelenting and nearly unbearable grief and loss. There were so many questions and so few answers. Why would Trevor do this? Where were the signs that Trevor had been depressed? Did someone else know something about Trevor's pain? Why would such a bright young man choose this?

How would she go on? She had so many unanswered questions. How would she care for her other three children and her grief-stricken husband? How would her 20+ year marriage survive the biggest trial it had ever faced?

These issues and the grieving process she lived through are all laid out with raw honesty, but are told as if she was sitting with you on the front porch with a cup of coffee.

After experiencing all the stages of grief and despite everything, Rebecca finds a way to dig her way back to life. She chooses to live a life with more happiness and purpose than ever before. This book tells how she uses various support groups and therapy sessions to cope, but ultimately does some major work on her own to enter life again.

Not as the same woman, but a new, more conscious and mindful mother, wife and friend. She depicts how her personal transformation helped her make the decision to leave her accounting career, lose weight, do major decluttering and forgiveness work, and set some big goals for her life.