I am Rick Levesque. This is my first book; it is about faith, my recovery from my alcoholism and pornography, and my experiences with the church after the revelation of my affair. I am not alone in my struggle and hope this will reach just one man to help him get honest about his sin and encourage the church to be more open to sinners.

In many ways, the church is broken; years of pleasantries and hollow worship, dependent on tradition while keeping appearances up, have almost proven to be ineffective for those who struggle with sin. The struggles of the world are the same struggles of the church. Sin is nothing new. I fought for years trying to live up to the image that I had created. Once brought to my knees by my alcoholism, I found a relationship with God in the rooms of recovery and began attending church with the burden of pornography addiction on my back.

The physical affair that followed, and its revelation in the cruelest of manners, would test my faith and my view of the church and force me to my knees again. I became desperate for the love of Christ and transparency. I am not alone in my struggle; I have found that others became more open in my openness. There is power in all of our testimonies. I know Jesus loves me, but maybe I can love others by sharing my story.