Nobody warned you about the rage.

Not the sadness — you expected that. But the anger? The kind that makes you look at a picture of your mom and say *fuck you for leaving me?* That part, nobody talks about.

In this raw, honest solo episode, Nicole Weston opens up about the grief emotion she was least prepared for — the rage that followed her mom's death and refused to move no matter how many books she read, groups she joined, or therapy sessions she attended. Five years out, from a deeply integrated place, Nicole reflects on what that anger was really doing for her, why it's okay to be furious at someone you love who died, and what happens when your inner spark starts to go quiet.

This episode gives you full permission to be exactly where you are — and offers real, practical tools for honoring your anger without letting it define you.

There's not a lot of spaces where you can openly talk about how angry you are at your dead mom. I'm the one that's living. I'm the one going through the emotions. And if I don't move it, it's going to move me" - Nicole Weston

In This Episode

- Why Nicole was blindsided by the intensity of her grief rage — even as a trained coach who teaches emotional processing every day

- The second year: why it hit harder than the first, and how perfectionism made it worse

- What to do when the books, groups, and therapy aren't moving the anger

- How survival mode creeps in slowly — and how your spark starts to go out without you noticing

- Why being angry at your mom for dying is not a character flaw — it is love with nowhere to go

- The moment Nicole realized: *thank you, rage. You kept me alive.

- Practical tools to release anger safely, without judgment

- Why your emotional map is one of the most powerful tools you have in grief

Connect with Nicole

Website: www.nicoleweston.ca

Instagram:https://www.instagram.com/thenicoleweston/

Connection Call: https://nicoleweston.as.me/connection

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About Nicole Weston

Nicole Weston is a transformational life coach, trained social worker, podcast host, and Quantum Change Process™ practitioner. She works with women navigating grief, motherhood, and major life transitions — helping them move from survival mode into integration, so they can lead their families, businesses, and communities from a place of wholeness. She is a motherless mother, a wife, a business owner, and she built this podcast because she couldn't find the community she needed — so she created it.

Can't Call Your Mom is a movement for women who refuse to grieve quietly, and who refuse to choose between healing and ambition.*

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