Maru and Amalia step into the terrains of death, dying, and the small and large endings that shape a life. They explore fear, desire, grief, and ego-shedding, inviting listeners into an inquiry of why we might compulsively push death away and what becomes possible when we don’t.

Topics explored include:

• Feeling “close to death” and the clarity, emptiness, or non-narrative states that accompany those seasons
• Aging, mortality, and the wisdom available when we stop resisting the inevitability of death
• Suicidality and the cultural and pathological perspectives that shape how we relate to death
• Ancestral contact and thinning veils in emotional, spiritual, and philosophical proximity to death
• The relationship between death, desire, and impermanence, and the generative potential of letting go
• Non-physical experiences of death: ego deaths, initiations, psychedelic states, chosen pain, kink, and microdosed endings
• Astrological and Human Design references to difference in calibrating to death and dying: the water signs, fear motivation, the undefined spleen

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Maru is a 6/2 Sacral Generator, Leo Rising with Sun in Cancer and Moon in Virgo
• Amalia is a 4/6 Emotional Generator, Taurus Rising with Sun in Aquarius and Moon in Pisces

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo