I tell the disturbing story of Louise Porton - the mother who murdered her own two young daughters to get "peace and quiet." As I break down the red flags and emotional betrayal of a parent harming their child, I open up about inner child wounds, growing up feeling unprotected, and the healing required to become the mother you needed. This episode cuts deep.

This episode talks about the real case of Louise Porton, and everything mentioned comes from court records and credible reporting — not TikTok theories, not Facebook detectives, and definitely not vibes.

Where the information comes from:

UK court proceedings and sentencing records - Louise Porton was convicted of murdering her two daughters, Lexi and Scarlett, in 2018

Sky News (UK) Trial coverage, evidence presented, and sentencing details

ITV News (UK) Reporting on the investigation, courtroom findings, and judge’s remarks

The Independent and London Evening Standard Details about the timeline, internet searches, behavior before and after the deaths, and court conclusions.

International news outlets (including ABC News)Summaries of the conviction and confirmed facts of the case

A few things that matter and need to be said clearly:

• This case is not speculation — it was decided in court

• The details shared here are based on verified reporting, not rumor

• The victims are children, and this story is handled with care and intention

Content Note (Porque esto sí pesa)

This episode discusses the murder of children and topics that can be emotionally heavy. Please take care of yourself while listening.

Note From La Dama del Desmadre:

True crime isn’t entertainment when it forgets the humans involved.

This episode is about telling the truth, honoring the victims, and sitting with the uncomfortable parts — without exploiting them.

Researcher/Editor: La Dama Del Desmadre

Writer/Storyteller: La Dama Del Desmadre

The Girl in the Elevator: Elisa Lam, Mental Storms & Mexican Hot Chocolate

Now available with Spotify Transcript

This episode of Trauma, Tacos & True Crime is not about ghosts, conspiracies, or internet theories... it’s about a real young woman whose story was turned into entertainment instead of compassion.

Elisa Lam was 21 years old, traveling alone, and living with bipolar disorder. After she went missing in Los Angeles, the world became obsessed with an elevator video — pausing it, slowing it down, and projecting fear onto behavior that many mental health professionals recognize as crisis.

In this episode I talk about what we don’t like to talk about: mental illness, medication interruptions, loneliness, and how easily we dehumanize people when we don’t understand what we’re seeing.

To ground the heaviness, I bring it back to comfort — Mexican hot chocolate, the kind you make when your thoughts are loud and you need something warm to hold onto.

This is not a spooky story.

It’s a human one.

Listener discretion advised for discussions of mental health and death.

Sources & The Actual Facts (Because Respect Matters)

This episode is based on verified reporting and official findings related to the death of Elisa Lam. No speculation, no paranormal theories, no TikTok nonsense.

Where the information comes from Porque aqui, no mentimos:

Los Angeles County Department of Medical Examiner–Coroner– Official ruling: Accidental drowning, with bipolar disorder listed as a contributing condition

Los Angeles Police Department (LAPD)

Public statements regarding the investigation, timeline, and elevator footage release

Los Angeles Times

Reporting on the Cecil Hotel, the investigation, and coroner conclusions

CBC News (Canada)

Coverage of Elisa’s background, her family, and conversations around mental health

National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI)

Information on bipolar disorder, crisis symptoms, and medication interruption

National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH)

Educational resources on mood disorders and mental health emergencies

Important clarifications, because they matter:

• No evidence of homicide or third-party involvement was found

• No credible evidence supports paranormal or conspiracy explanations

• Elisa’s behavior in the elevator video is consistent with documented symptoms of acute mental health crisis

  
  

  
  

  A note from ME:

  True Crime should never come at the cost of someone's humanity. This episode was made CON CORAZON for Elisa, for her family, and for anyone who's ever felt overwhelmed in their own mind.

If you’ve ever loaned someone a container and never saw it again… welcome.

Today I’m venting about the lost Tupperware epidemic, why it triggers something deep in my body, and how being a mom of five means I don’t have time to replace the good ones. Funny, petty, and way too real.

Writer/StoryTeller : La Dama Del Desmadre

Producer/Editor: La Dama Del Desmadre

Content warning: domestic violence, murder, child victims, pregnancy loss, emotional/graphic topics.

Hola hola, locas y locos — it’s La Dama del Desmadre from Trauma, Tacos & True Crime.

Today we’re in Frederick, Colorado (August 2018) for the Watts case — a story that looked “picture perfect” online… and turned out to be a whole DAMN MASK. The kind where everybody wants the highlight reel, but nobody wants the truth.

We’re breaking down the timeline, the public plea, the moments that made people’s stomachs drop, and how fast the “perfect family” story fell apart in real time. And yes — we’re going to talk about the uncomfortable part: how appearances, control, and ego can hide in plain sight… until they don’t.

Quick disclaimer so nobody tries to sue me because they got emotional: I’m not your therapist, I’m not your doctor, and I’m not diagnosing nobody. This is not medical advice. Relax. Breathe. And if you hear kids in the background good. That means everybody’s alive. This is MY HOME not a recording studio.

At the end we’re doing our grounding comfort food moment — because this case is heavy, and we don’t just listen to trauma and pretend we’re fine.

If you or someone you love is in danger, please reach out to local emergency services or a domestic violence hotline in your area.

Credits :

Written and Hosted by: La Dama Del Desmadre

Editing: Descript/La Dama Del Desmadre

Research: public records and source notes below

Case materials:

Weld County District Attorney: “Information on Watts Case” (official case hub/records info).

Colorado Judicial Branch (court PDF): “Written Waiver and Guilty Plea” (dated Nov 6, 2018).

Colorado Judicial Branch (court PDF): “Complaint and Information” (charges filed in 2018).

Weld County District Attorney press release: “Chris Watts Admits to Killing Pregnant Wife and Two Young Children” (Nov 6, 2018).

Documentary:

9NEWS coverage re: discovery documents and released case materials

American Murder: The Family Next Door (Netflix documentary).

Episode 1: Jennifer Kesse — Her Absence Was Loud

Jennifer Kesse was 24 years old. Independent, organizada, and building her life in Orlando. New condo. New routine. New chapter.

Then on the morning of January 24, 2006, she left for work…

And she never arrived.

In this episode, we walk through the timeline that raised alarms fast, the car that showed up like it was trying to disappear in plain sight, and the surveillance footage that still haunts people because somehow, every time the “person of interest” passes the camera… the face is blocked.

And of course… This ain't medical advice, RELAX—because cases like this don’t just live in your mind. They hit your nervous system. That uneasy “oh hell not…” feeling? You’re not crazy. Your body clocks patterns before your brain finishes the sentence.

Content note: This episode includes true crime, disappearance, trauma themes, and dark humor (porque así sobrevivimos). If you’re feeling activated, pause and protect your peace. Este episodio estará aquí cuando estés lista.

Primary case info referenced:

1. FBI ViCAP (Missing Person: Jennifer Joyce Kesse)
2. NamUs (National Missing and Unidentified Persons System)
3. JenniferKesse.com (family-led case hub)

Additional reporting referenced for context:

Major broadcast / long-form coverage

(48 Hours and other famous outlets)

Host and Storytelling: La Dama Del Desmadre

Show: Trauma, Tacos & True Crime

Writing, Research and Editing: La Dama del Desmadre

IF YOU HAVE A TIP (no te quedes callada)

Orlando Police Department:

407-246-2470

FDLE Missing Person Clearinghouse:

1-888-FL-MISSING (1-888-356-4774)

Family Tip Line

(941) 201-4009

Crimeline: 1-800-423-TIPS

California born, Nevada-raised, half Mexican, half Nicaraguan, Mother of 5.

This isn't about the murder or the crime, it's about the emotional wreckage left behind.

We talk trauma, survival, inner child healing, and the damage -with dark humor and real life reflection.

Because healing is messy....and so are we.

New episodes start December 31.