Scripture:
My soul is exhausted awaiting Your rescue, yet I keep hoping in Your word. My eyes are strained as I look for what You promised, saying, “When will You come to comfort me?” Even though I have shriveled up like a wineskin left in the smoke, I still remember what You require. Psalm 119:81-83 (VOICE)
The Gist:
We often fall into the trap of believing strong faith means always feeling confident and happy, while weak faith brings on sadness, confusion, and exhaustion.
Faith doesn't mean that we never break down or get exhausted; it means never breaking away from God.
Reframe complaining to lament (complaint turns us away from God, and lament turns us toward God).
Examples: (X - instead of, O - Try)
X - Why am I struggling to trust?
O- Am I still bringing my struggle to God? (If the answer is yes, faith is still alive.)
X - Why can't I believe more or have stronger faith?
O - What am I honestly feeling right now? Can I bring that to God?
X - Why hasn't God answered my prayer or resolved this yet?
O - What is helping me endure/get through this day?
X - How do I fix my faith?
O - What is God inviting me to release/turn over to Him?
One great overall question we can ask ourselves to anchor us in times of questioning is: Am I still here with God?
God is always with us, so the question is, "Are we still with Him?" If the answer is yes, even faintly, then faith is still there. As Jesus says, I tell you this: if you had even a faint spark of faith, even faith as tiny as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, “Move from here to there,” and because of your faith, the mountain would move. If you had just a sliver of faith, you would find nothing impossible. (Matthew 17:20)
Faith isn't measured by how little we struggle, but how and with whom we struggle.
Digging Deeper:
If I’m exhausted, can I let God be with me as I am rather than as I wish I were?
What kind of struggle am I in right now—resisting, wrestling, waiting, or grieving?
If I allowed myself to lament, what would I say honestly?
What am I trying to resolve that God may be asking me to endure with Him?
What small signs of faith are still present in me, even if they feel insignificant?