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  • Riding Through Fear
    Apr 29 2026

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    Season 2 Episode 10:

    We catch up on what’s been happening in my life with PTSD and why “I’m good” can be the easiest answer even when it’s not true. I share how the Never Late Female Posty Ride pushed me straight through fear and still ended with pride, friendship, and big funds raised for Wings For Kids.
    • Song of the week and why it hits
    • Why we default to “I’m good” and what it costs
    • Using a simple number scale to communicate feelings
    • Choosing who to open up to and when
    • What Wings For Kids does for regional families
    • Riding back roads on postie bikes and the realities of dirt
    • Watching fear spike after last year’s crash and working through it
    • Finishing the ride plus water crossings pink night and gala night
    • Raising over $400,000 this year and why volunteer charities matter
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    Song of the Week

    Kingdom of Fear - Cameron Whitcomb

    https://youtu.be/YZ2WXl3VXLU?si=Uz3zZb-o7Ic3gWXL


    Thought of the Week:

    The Boy, the Mole, the Fox and the Horse - Charlie Mackesy

    "Well Hello, Do you have a favourite saying? asked the boy. Yes, said the mole. What is it? If at first you don't succeed have some cake. I see, does it work? Everytime"

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    22 min
  • If Words Can Shape A Life What Are Yours Building
    Apr 15 2026

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    Season 2, Episode 9

    We talk about the parts of my PTSD recovery I rarely say out loud, including how faith helps me keep moving when life feels too heavy. I also share a moment with Rory that reframes body image and self-worth, plus a story that proves how words can shape what we believe about ourselves.
    • thanking my brother and reflecting on why family chats feel cathartic
    • faith as a private but steady support in PTSD recovery
    • the song God I Tried But I Fell Again and what getting back up really means
    • Rory’s photo comment and why weight does not equal worth
    • losing weight, losing muscle, and starting strength work again
    • why words have power and how self-talk can become your truth
    • a daily affirmation challenge: I am enough and I am worthy
    • thought of the week on gratitude and perspective from The Boy, the Mole, the Fox and the Horse
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    Song of the Week:

    God I Tried But Fell Again - Chris Stapleton & Lauren Daigle

    https://youtu.be/rJvNxJOYVj8?si=UBN97dUMmmFHQcUm


    Thought of the Week:

    The Boy The Mole The Fox and The Horse - Charlie Mackesy

    "Is your glass half empty or half full? Asked the mole. I think I'm grateful to have a glass said the boy"

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    18 min
  • Growing Up Together And Facing PTSD After Policing
    Apr 8 2026

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    Season 2, Episode 8

    We talk with my brother Matthew about our messy, funny sibling history and how my policing career changed the way we both saw the world. He shares what it felt like watching my PTSD unfold, what he got wrong at first, and what helped him learn how to support me with patience and faith.
    • where “Fez” comes from and what it says about our childhood
    • the age gap between us and why we clashed so hard
    • the confidence shift Matthew sees when I join the police
    • what first responder exposure can do over time
    • how PTSD shows up later even when you think you coped
    • what helplessness looks like for family on the outside
    • why music becomes an outlet when words fail
    • the guilt and uncertainty of visiting and supporting
    • what Matthew learns about stigma and men getting help
    • why healing has no fixed timeline and patience matters
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    Songs of the week:

    Linkin Park - Heavy is the Crown

    https://youtu.be/ZAt8oxY0GQo?si=0WGCoxmQN2x9d1Pz

    Harvest - There is a Peace

    https://youtu.be/YWmH9a4gjn4?si=0Vm7_BdLKfhfMR0l


    Thought of the week

    Romans 12:2 NLT

    "Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect."

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    1 h et 5 min
  • You Are Not A Burden
    Mar 31 2026

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    Season 2, Episode 7

    I share what’s been on my mind lately, from a reel that reminded me I’m not a burden to the small routines that keep me steady when I start to feel flat. I also tell the full story of our Canberra pickleball weekend, a compliment that meant more than weight loss, and the progress I can finally see in my PTSD recovery.
    • A reel that reframes depression and shame
    • Why your past does not define you
    • Canberra pickleball tournament highs and mishaps
    • Swearing at myself and learning to laugh
    • Feeling flat, tired, and tempted to isolate
    • Rebuilding routine with walks, sport, and sleep
    • Guilt when you cannot show up physically
    • Fundraising for Wings for Kids and why it matters
    • “You look happy” as the best kind of well
    • Using hospital-taught coping skills in daily life
    • Thought of the week on friendship and healing
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    Song of the week:

    Reel by Abe Parker

    https://youtube.com/shorts/9AtoMZ2CN0U?si=psDTps95xFAbHdZB


    Thought of the Week:

    The boy, the mole, the fox and the horse by Carlie Mackesy

    "What do we do when our hearts hurt? asked the boy. We wrap them with friendship, shared tears and time, till they wake hopeful and happy again"

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    20 min
  • Raising A Future Police Officer Through Trauma
    Mar 24 2026

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    Season 2, Episode 6:

    Watching PTSD up close is one thing. Watching it happen to your child is another. For this conversation, I bring on my mum and dad to tell the story people rarely hear: what it’s like to raise a strong-willed kid, cheer her on into the police force, and then sit in the shockwave when trauma finally shows up years later.

    We talk about the proud moments and the ordinary memories, but we also get real about the scary parts: not knowing the right thing to say, worrying when the phone stays quiet, and learning that you can’t “fix” someone else’s depression, anxiety, or post-traumatic stress. We unpack why PTSD can feel sudden even when the signs are hidden, how stigma around mental health hospitals can keep families stuck, and why inpatient care can actually be the safest, most supportive step forward.

    We also go into medical retirement at 37, the loss of identity that can follow emergency service work, and the coping strategies that helped me climb back, including education, therapy, medication, support from my husband and kids, and the small daily wins that signal the old me returning. If you’re searching for honest first responder mental health stories, PTSD recovery, and what family support really looks like, this one will land.

    If it helps, share it with someone who needs hope, then subscribe and leave a review so more people can find Mad Mel’s Mic. What part of the parents’ perspective hit you hardest?


    Thought of the Week:

    The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The Horse - Daniel Mackesy

    "Sometimes, said the horse, Sometimes what asked the boy. Sometimes just getting up and carrying on is brave and magnificent"

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    51 min
  • I’m Learning To Stay Present Even When Anxiety Spikes
    Mar 17 2026

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    Season 2, Episode 5

    I catch up on a huge week and use a “song of the week” to remind us that everything we are is enough, even on the worst days. I also reflect on how my PTSD recovery shows up in real moments like family parties, anxiety spikes, and the small routines that keep me steady.
    • song of the week as a self-worth reminder and a way to stay open
    • Rory’s 18th birthday party chaos and accommodation stress
    • noticing real change since Mackenzie’s 18th and feeling more present
    • hope after dark periods and hospital stays and why small progress counts
    • basketball semis, injury prevention, and choosing preparation over pain
    • anxiety-provoking life stress while off antidepressants and how I’m coping
    • redefining mindfulness through trash TV, reading, and pickleball focus
    • using SUDS to track distress and understand what shifts it
    • Canberra pickleball tournament nerves, morning routines, and boundaries
    • thought of the week on fear and PTSD catastrophising
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    Song of the Week:

    This is Me - The Greatest Showman

    https://youtu.be/CjxugyZCfuw?si=in3hp_gEawoM02Rl


    Thought of the Week:

    The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The Horse - Daniel Mackesy

    "Imagine how we would be if we were less afraid"

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    20 min
  • Brighter Days Still Count
    Mar 10 2026

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    Season 2, Episode 4

    We break a two-week silence with a real check-in on PTSD, sleep, and why progress shows up as longer stretches between low days. From pickleball highs to a Bali trip without meds and a surprising psychedelic light session, we map tools that kept us steady.

    • owning the social media gap and why showing up matters
    • using “brighter days” as a practical frame for recovery
    • tracking intervals between bad days as progress
    • travel stress, lost sleep, and anxiety triggers
    • pickleball wins, fatigue costs, and body signals
    • Bali nightlife, unexpected joy, and dancing anyway
    • psychedelic light and sound healing takeaways
    • sleep hygiene, medicinal cannabis, and consistency
    • managing high SUDS in sport with breath and awareness
    • resisting catastrophising and choosing self-kindness
    • redefining success as love, especially self-love

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    Song of the week:

    Brighter Days - Blessing Offors

    https://youtu.be/I6lp1Oxb9L4?si=epzcou0gNKAm5Tph

    Thought of the Week:

    The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The Horse - Charlie Mackesy

    "What do you think success is? asked the boy. To love said the mole"

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    22 min
  • Time Moves Fast, Hold Your People Close
    Feb 17 2026

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    Season 2, Episode 3

    We explore how fast life feels and why music, small joys, and steady people help us face PTSD and depression. A workshop comparing mental and physical disability weights reframes invisible pain, while a weekend of concerts, volunteering and rep basketball becomes a field test for coping skills.

    • time racing and naming the squeeze
    • song of the week as an anchor
    • stadium singalong and shared humanity
    • how we record without a script
    • volunteering highs, travel fatigue, rest needs
    • trash TV as low-stakes mindfulness
    • mental vs physical disability weights
    • stigma of invisible injury and service dogs
    • sideline anxiety and holding steady
    • doing the work and owning progress
    • thought of the week from Charlie Mackesy

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    Song of the week

    Stand By Me - Ben E. King

    https://youtu.be/hwZNL7QVJjE?si=J8KRV0nOQcF9Ym7I


    Thought of the Week:

    The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and the Horse - Charlie Mackesy

    "Sometimes I feel lost, said the boy. Mw too said the Mole, but we love you and love brings you home"

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    22 min