A raw, personal account of how childhood instability, generational trauma, and my mother’s addiction shaped a lifelong fear of change. join me as I recount losses, including my grandfather and mother, the chaos of moving, and the haunting experience of facing my mother’s death during Hurricane Irma.

Through grief and hard work, I explain why radical change is now my only path to healing.

What happens when you wake up from a 42-year fog and realize a monster stole your childhood blueprint? In this heavy, unfiltered short, i' cracking open the reality of Complex PTSD, structural dissociation, and the intense grief of stolen potential. From being the local 'crazy wiener lady' hand-sewing dachshund outfits to breaking a years-long creative freeze with a brand-new machine, this episode is a raw look at what happens when your artistic soul aggressively wakes back up. It’s messy, it’s fragmented, and it’s a total reclamation of personal power. Grab a seat at the table!

When you grow up with abuse, the trauma doesn't stay in the past—it acts like an invasive vine that hijacks your entire development. The specific memories might be a blur, but the roots grew deep into my brain, hard-coding my fears, my self-image, and my sense of worth.