Épisodes

  • How to Find Your Way When You've Lost Control
    Jan 2 2026

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    Ep. 10: How to Find Your Way When You've Lost Control

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    Episode Description (Show Notes):

    After a three-month hiatus, Anish returns with the most personal and vulnerable episode of Still Becoming yet. He opens up about the storm of anxiety that led to his break—a perfect storm of a massive financial decision and the professional uncertainty of widespread layoffs at his company.

    This episode is a raw, honest look at what happens when our brain's addiction to certainty is shattered by the static of the unknown. It's a deep dive into the physiological hijacking of anxiety and a search for the tools that can bring us back to solid ground.

    Anish shares two profound, unexpected moments of grace that provided a user manual for navigating the storm: a simple, three-rule lesson from a paddleboarding priest, and the unshakable, anchoring faith of his mother. This is a conversation about finding your direction when you're lost in the waves and holding on to an anchor when you feel adrift.

    In this episode, we explore:

    • The Hiatus: An honest explanation for the three-month break and the power of returning to the messy, unfinished parts.
    • The Neuroscience of Anxiety: A simple, powerful metaphor for why uncertainty feels like a biological emergency (and why it's not your fault).
    • The Horizon, The Paddle, The Grip: A practical, three-step user manual for navigating anxiety, inspired by the rules of stand-up paddleboarding.
    • The Anchor of Belief: A moving story about the power of borrowed faith and a mother's love to regulate our nervous system.
    • Finding Your Own Anchor: A guide to identifying the people, places, practices, and ideas that can hold you steady in your own storms.

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    • Substack: iamstillbecoming.substack.com
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    15 min
  • The Coldest Case
    Sep 24 2025

    It’s two in the morning, and your brain decides to reopen its coldest case: a past mistake, a moment of shame, a decision you regret. Welcome to the late-night court case against your past self—a trial where you are always found guilty.

    This episode is a deep, compassionate dive into the universal struggle of self-forgiveness. Anish opens his own coldest case file—"The Ghost of Potential"—sharing a raw, personal story about being a gifted student who lost his way and the "what if?" that has haunted him for years.

    This isn't just a conversation about regret; it's a toolkit for healing. It’s a permission slip to fire your inner prosecutor and a guide to transforming your inner courtroom from a place of judgment to a place of profound context and compassion.

    In this episode, we explore:

    • The Inner Prosecutor: Understanding the true, misguided job of your inner critic (and how to give it a new one).
    • The Ghost Self: A powerful way to understand the grief we feel for the versions of ourselves that never came to be.
    • Inherited Ghosts: Acknowledging the family scripts, cultural messages, and traumas that we carry but did not create.
    • The Court of Context: A life-changing framework for shifting from self-judgment to self-understanding.
    • A Compassionate Cross-Examination: A gentle, three-question practice to dissolve shame and build empathy for your past self.
    • An Embodied Practice: A simple, somatic tool to connect with your body and calm your nervous system when painful memories arise.

    Follow the Podcast & Join the Conversation:

    • Substack: iamstillbecoming.substack.com
    • Instagram: @iamstillbecoming

    If this episode resonated with you, the greatest compliment is to share it with a friend who might need to hear it. Thank you for being on this journey.

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    12 min
  • How to Pray When You're Not Sure Anyone is Listening
    Sep 16 2025

    For many of us, prayer is the most awkward conversation we've ever had. It can feel like a performance, a negotiation, or a desperate text message sent into the cosmos, leaving us waiting for a "divine read receipt" that never comes.

    This episode is a deeply personal and inclusive exploration of prayer for the modern world. It’s a permission slip to let go of the rigid scripts and find a more honest, intimate way to connect with the mystery of it all. Anish shares his own messy evolution with prayer—from a transactional "vending machine" to a more profound practice of just being present.

    This is a conversation for the spiritual, the religious, the skeptic, and anyone who has ever felt like they were talking to the ceiling.

    In this episode, we explore:

    • The Divine Read Receipt: Why our obsession with getting a "response" is the biggest obstacle to a meaningful prayer life.
    • Religion vs. Faith vs. Spirituality: A simple, powerful framework (The Map, The Step, and The Walk) to untangle these loaded terms.
    • The Four Stages of Prayer: A guide to the natural evolution of our spiritual conversations.
    • The Elephant Metaphor: A life-changing way to understand how prayer and meditation give us the perspective we need to navigate our problems.
    • The Prayer of Breakdown: The ultimate, most vulnerable form of prayer, and why it is the key to true healing.
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    16 min
  • The Unfair Game
    Sep 1 2025

    You know the feeling. You do the work, you follow the rules, but someone else—the one who glides in with a single, shiny buzzword—leaves with the narrative. It’s a gut-wrenching, profoundly unfair feeling that leaves you questioning your own worth.

    This episode is a deep dive into that feeling. It’s a diagnosis of why the confident, fast-moving "Daves" of the world have so much power over us, and a powerful toolkit for reclaiming your own sense of worth in a system that feels rigged.

    Drawing on a raw, personal story from a recent vacation, a timeless piece of Indian folklore, and a game-changing new framework, Anish offers a path to stop watching their scoreboard and start keeping your own. This is a masterclass in playing the long game.

    In this episode, we explore:

    • The Two Invisible Games: A powerful framework for understanding the "Game of Merit" vs. the "Game of Momentum" that is being played in every room.
    • The Parable of the Musk Deer (Kasturi Mrig): A beautiful piece of ancient wisdom that perfectly diagnoses our modern search for external validation.
    • The "Dave" Diagnosis: A breakdown of the social physics that explains why certain personalities feel so intimidating and how they create a "momentum field."
    • The Merit Board: A simple, actionable tool to stop the cycle of self-doubt and start building a case file for your own integrity and worth.
    • A Vulnerable Personal Story: Anish shares a recent, painful experience of freezing in a high-stakes meeting and the crucial lessons learned.

    Follow the Podcast & Join the Conversation:

    • Substack: iamstillbecoming.substack.com
    • Instagram: @iamstillbecoming

    If this episode resonated with you, the greatest compliment is to share it with a friend who might need to hear it. Thank you for being on this journey.

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    12 min
  • Shared Becoming with Tanya
    Aug 7 2025

    Ep. 4: A Shared Becoming with Tanya

    What if the most radical thing you could do when facing the unknown was to assume positive intent? In the first-ever guest episode of Still Becoming, Anish is joined by writer and storyteller Tanya for a deeply honest and wonderfully practical conversation about the frameworks we build to navigate life's messiness.

    Tanya shares her personal "operating system" forged through moving 19 times across different cities—a system built on resilience, authenticity, and a liberating approach to validation. This is a conversation packed with hard-won wisdom about what it truly means to show up as yourself, find your people, and make peace with the beautiful imperfection of your own journey.

    In this conversation, we explore:

    • Assuming Positive Intent: Tanya’s powerful framework for navigating new people, places, and challenges.
    • The 80/20 Rule: A liberating mental model for letting go of the need for universal approval.
    • A Process for Failure: Moving through disappointment by feeling fully, finding your "3 AM friends," and trusting that clarity will come later.
    • The Art of Adaptation: How genuine interest in language and food can be the fastest way to build connection in unfamiliar environments.
    • The Journey to Authenticity: What it takes to be the same person at work and at home, and the freedom that comes with it.
    • Plus: The power of a good "adda," why "bookish knowledge" isn't everything, and what we lose when our shared spaces become too sanitized.

    Follow the Podcast:

    • Instagram: @iamstillbecoming
    • Substack: iamstillbecoming.substack.com

    If this conversation resonated with you, please share it with a friend who might need to hear it. And be sure to subscribe to Still Becoming so you never miss a moment of our journey together.

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    47 min
  • The Script You Did Not Write (but have been living anyway)
    Jul 25 2025

    In this raw and revealing episode, we explore the hidden scripts that shape our lives – those unwritten rules and expectations we inherited from our families, cultures, and faith traditions. Through personal stories of growing up in a Syrian Catholic family and navigating cultural expectations, we unpack how these scripts continue to influence our choices, even when we think we've outgrown them.

    From a childhood moment of agreeing to join the seminary to recent professional situations where old patterns of self-minimizing emerge, we examine how deeply these scripts run and what it takes to begin writing our own story. We'll share moments of both struggle and triumph, including small acts of resistance that feel like quiet revolutions.

    Key Topics:

    • Cultural and religious expectations
    • Inherited patterns of behavior
    • The tension between tradition and authenticity
    • Breaking patterns of self-minimizing
    • The journey from obligation to choice
    • Small acts of resistance
    • Redefining humility and success

    "If I am not for myself, who will be for me? And if I am only for myself, what am I? And if not now, when?" - Rabbi Hillel

    As you listen to this episode, we invite you to reflect:

    • What scripts are you living by that you never chose?
    • Where in your life are you performing rather than living?
    • What would it look like to write your own story?

    Share your thoughts with us using #StillBecoming or join our community discussions at [platform]. Your story matters, and your voice deserves to be heard.

    Perfect for:

    • Anyone questioning inherited beliefs or patterns
    • Those navigating cultural or religious expectations
    • People working through religious trauma or spiritual transformation
    • Anyone feeling stuck in patterns they didn't choose
    • Listeners interested in authentic personal growth
    • Those seeking to balance tradition with personal truth

    Next Steps: Listen to Episode 2 for more context on the Rabbi Hillel quote and our ongoing exploration of faith and personal growth. Subscribe to ensure you don't miss future episodes where we'll continue exploring these themes of authenticity, healing, and growth.

    Remember: Breaking free from old scripts isn't about rejecting everything we've learned – it's about consciously choosing which stories we want to keep telling.

    Join us as we sit with the hard things, together.

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    #MentalHealth #Faith #PersonalGrowth #CulturalIdentity #Authenticity #Healing #SelfDiscovery #Trauma #Recovery #Spirituality #MentalHealthJourney #ReligiousTrauma #CulturalExpectations

    Music Courtesy

    • serenit.free.fr/sons/bruits/coeur.wav - heartbeat
    • Haven, Enigma, Dawn, Double Take, Harmonic drift, Silent Reverie and Ascend - Created on Riffusion AI
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    21 min
  • The Burden of Being Everyone’s Rock
    Jul 8 2025

    Are you the one everyone leans on—but no one checks in on?

    This episode dives into the quiet ache of being the steady one. The rock. The 3 AM friend. Through personal stories, spiritual reflection, and the tender weight of responsibility, we explore what it costs to carry others without letting yourself crumble.

    We’ll unpack: • The emotional toll of being “the strong one” • How childhood survival becomes adult exhaustion • Why even lighthouses need someone to tend their light • A framework for rebuilding trust and finding your own 3 AM friendWhether you’re a caregiver, a quiet leader, or the friend who always shows up—this is your invitation to pause, breathe, and ask: Who’s there for me?

    Music in this episode:

    • 'Adrift Among Infinite Stars'
    • 'Meanwhile'
    • 'Tears In Rain'

    All tracks by Scott Buckley, released under CC-BY 4.0

    Find more at www.scottbuckley.com.au

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    26 min
  • The Courage to Fail: Reclaiming Failure in a Success-Obsessed World
    Jun 23 2025

    "What if your failures aren't problems to fix, but doorways to who you're becoming?"

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    53 min