In this episode, I cover my experience with bulimia through exercise, and how, at a certain point, exercise can become deadly while chasing an unsustainable and unhealthy body image. I talk about tips and philosophies that I have learned in my own continuing education and therapy that have greatly helped in 1.) finding my footing in my recovery 2.) fighting for myself without fighting against myself, and 3.) knowing my worth is not determined by how grueling the workout was.

Welcome back to the podcast! In today's episode, during Eating Disorder Awareness Week, I touch on, as the title implies, what an eating disorder is to me. I cover the tribulations that come with it and why it is so important to meet yourself with patience and understanding rather than self loathing and finite willpower.

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In this episode, the focus is on a snapshot of my time with my binge eating disorder. At its worst, I am bed bound by massive depressive episodes and a want for life's cessation. I am lost within myself with no directions back to myself. At its worst, my B.E.D. feels like a black cloak reaper inhabiting the sky blue with its blackened infection. But as is the journey of growth, I also focus on the mileage I have put between where I was and where I am now within my recovery, sharing some (hopefully) helpful insights along the way. The path isn't about getting pricked by the thorns along the way, it's about looking back and seeing the blossomed garden you've cultivated with your blood, sweat, tears, and fortitude to fight for yourself.

This episode contains explicit content