A chance meeting between Cameron, a successful, divorced businessman and Shaina, an upbeat young waitress sparks love at first sight. As their lives become entwined, their relationship becomes a complex and passionate roller coaster of raw emotions and blissful pleasure. But, one night, after hosting a party with friends, Shaina changes everything in an instant, a final act of self-harm, leaving Cameron in a whirlwind of loss, isolation, and destruction.

Cameron is immediately suspected of murder. And, contrary to all the forensic evidence pointing to this being a suicide, he’s hauled off to jail despite the lack of charges.

In meticulous and often explicit detail, through flash-back and recall–and supporting images–Cameron takes us on an intimate personal and compelling journey where his own battle dealing with shock and pain, depression and substance abuse is laid bare for all to see. Cameron’s life is turned upside down with mutual friends believing he is guilty of killing the one person he loved most. Destructive community ostracization and social media’s unwavering onslaught bring him to the very brink of self-destruction. All while struggling to come to grips with the tragedy, his own mental health is severely challenged.

In the end, this is an inspiring memoir, a testament in overcoming trauma: showing how one man emerged from the depths of despair, troubling self-doubt and addiction in the hope of finding peace—to rebuild his life, clear his name, and restore his faith in humanity … a life he is still mending.

And, most importantly, it’s a story to shed light on suicide and the questions many loved ones ask, “What else could I have done? What did I miss?” and “Why?”