In this episode, I stay in the same reflective headspace as last time—no scripted “Tony Stark logic,” just me talking through what’s been weighing on me since the season ended.

I dig into the real cost of football in my life: time, stress, and how much it quietly dictates my schedule, my energy, and even my ability to build a life outside of the sport.

I also get honest about how football has affected my dating life and friendships. When the season hits, everything else gets pushed aside—new habits, new projects, social plans, even relationships. I reflect on moments where I chose football over someone I was seeing, and how that pattern keeps repeating. It’s not just “time management.” It’s identity management—football has been the default priority for so long that I’m now questioning what happens if I remove it.

Then I shift into the hardest part: coaching frustration. I talk about the repeated cycle of incompetence, ego, and drama—being surrounded by people who talk big, make poor decisions, refuse accountability, and then act surprised when things fall apart. I recount the moments that broke my trust: unrealistic expectations, bad preparation, and losing games that should’ve been winnable because of preventable mistakes and poor coaching fundamentals.

This episode is basically me asking: Is this still worth it? Not in a dramatic way—more in a sober, realistic way. I’ve spent years believing the story would pay off, that if I stayed patient and kept grinding I’d eventually get the opportunity I’ve worked for. Now I’m confronting the possibility that I’m burning years of my life waiting for other people to hand me a chance—and that I might be done letting that happen.