If you've followed along with Pretending God Is Real, this is where both of our journeys landed. Sarah and I started the same experiment a week apart. On day 13 she said she couldn't take the leap until she felt it. On day 21 she jumped anyway.

We get into what happened in between, why faith might work more like marriage than proof, and the fear that kept me saying "just exploring" long after it stopped being the whole truth.

• What happened between day 13 and 21
• Faith as a daily choice, like marriage
• Logic gets you to the door
• Coming out of the Christian closet
• Putting God above your husband
• Stepping back from someone for God
• Masculinity needs kindness and strength

If someone in your life is on the fence, send them this one.

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Timestamps

00:00-01:17 Intro01:17-05:44 What happened between day 13 and day 2105:44-10:59 Logic gets you to the door, faith turns the knob10:59-15:44 Faith is a deadlift, not a bicep curl15:44-18:27 Why "do you believe in God?" is the wrong question18:27-20:27 Coming out of the Christian closet20:27-24:30 Hiding a cross out of fear of judgment24:30-28:09 Having an affair with God28:09-33:04 Stepping back from a girl to step toward God33:04-40:14 Two rejections and a bus ride40:14-46:39 Can stubbornness protect your faith?46:39-50:44 She found her husband by not saying no50:44-56:43 Why masculinity needs kindness and strength56:43-01:02:19 The dinner where "calm masculinity" was too much01:02:19-01:08:02 Why politics is junk food for your mind01:08:02-01:10:26 What Sarah wants to be asked about01:10:26-01:10:38 Outro

Chris Synesael is a pastor here in Victoria, and for the last month he's been reading the stories of Jesus with me. I sat him down with one question: who would you be without your faith?

His answer wasn't a sermon. It was insecurity, anger, and control, the stuff his faith has slowly been healing. From there we got into the $20 Raptors ticket that changed his life at 17, why nobody gets to opt out of faith, and the question about God he still wrestles with.

• Who he'd be without his faith
• The difference between responsibility and fault
• Can therapy heal the soul?
• Everybody believes in something
• A $20 Raptors ticket and "liquid love"
• Why God seems to work through pain
• The worst pickup line that worked, eventually

If you've ever wondered what faith actually does to a person, start here.

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Timestamps

00:00-03:32 Who would you be without Jesus?03:32-13:51 Insecurity, anger, and digging up the root13:51-17:55 Responsibility isn't fault: which difficult do you want?17:55-20:33 Can therapy and meditation heal the soul?20:33-25:37 Hunger implies food: reasoning toward God25:37-32:23 Everybody believes in something without evidence32:23-37:53 A $20 Raptors ticket and "liquid love"37:53-41:17 What if they found the bones of Jesus?41:17-47:47 Christianity isn't just "Be like Jesus"47:47-50:54 Why does God do His best work through pain?50:54-56:18 The worst pickup line that worked, eventually56:18-01:02:03 Chris asks me: what has faith been like?01:02:03-01:09:54 The problem of suffering: a God who feels it too01:09:54-01:10:55 What a pastor actually wants to be asked about