Where was God when the worst things happened to you?

Was He there?

Did He see it? And if He did, why didn't He stop it?

These are questions many of us carry, especially when we've experienced pain we never should have had to endure.

In this episode, I'm sharing a deeply personal part of my story, including the meaning behind the name The Lion and Me.

I'll take you into a special moment in my faith journey—my baptism alongside my husband—and share what I've come to understand about God's presence in the middle of life's darkest valleys.

For a long time, I believed God was real, but I struggled to believe He truly loved me. I thought His love was for everyone else, but somehow, I wasn't enough to receive it.

What I know now has changed the way I see my past, my relationship with God, and the pain I've carried.

This episode is for anyone who has ever wondered where God was in their suffering, questioned His love, or struggled to understand how faith and pain can exist in the same story.

Your pain matters. What happened to you matters. And even in the darkest valley, you are not beyond the reach of God's love.

Thank you for being here and allowing me to share my story with you.

Welcome to The Lion and Me.

If this episode speaks to you, consider sharing it with someone who may need the reminder that they aren't alone.

The Biggest Lie | The Lion and Me with Kylee Shea | Episode 03

For most of my life, I believed God loved other people. I just didn't believe He could love me.

I believed I wasn't good enough. That somehow, I was the exception to His love.

For years, I carried that belief without even realizing how deeply it shaped the way I saw myself, my life, and my relationship with God.

In this episode, I share what began to change when I started therapy, confronted the lies I'd believed about myself, and found myself asking a deeper question: What if the things I believed about God weren't actually true?

As I began working through my past, I also joined a Bible study that challenged the way I had always viewed God. And one night, while holding my baby and crying out to Him, I experienced something that changed me in a way I still struggle to fully put into words.

For the first time, I didn't just believe that God loved me. I felt it.

This wasn't an overnight transformation. It was the beginning of learning who God really was, who He said I was, and what it meant to stop living according to the lies I'd carried for so long.

If you've ever struggled to believe that God truly loves you—not just people like you, but you—I hope this episode reminds you that your story is not beyond His redemption.

Thank you for being here and allowing me to share this part of my story with you! Praying my story brings one person one step closer to God.

--Kylee Shea

What happens when the life you've always wanted finally becomes your reality… but you still don't feel safe?

By the end of my twenties, I had become really good at surviving. I just didn't know that's what I was doing. Then I met the man who would become my husband. For the first time, I experienced a kind of love, kindness, tenderness, and safety I had never known before. We built a home, blended our family, had a baby, and from the outside, my life finally looked like everything I had hoped for. But inside, something was still wrong. When the world shut down during COVID, my anxiety and depression became impossible to ignore. I couldn't understand why I wasn't happy. I had a beautiful life. Why was I still struggling?

Then one day, my teenage daughter looked me in the eyes and said, "Mom, I think you need to go to therapy. I think you need help ."

Those words became a turning point.

Therapy helped me understand that I wasn't weak, ungrateful, or failing. I was still living in survival mode.

My environment was finally safe, but I hadn't learned how to feel safe yet.

In this episode, I share the beginning of that realization — and the moment I started finding the woman underneath the walls I had built to survive.

Because surviving isn't the same thing as living. And sometimes, healing begins when we finally realize we don't have to keep surviving anymore.

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