Most of us have built ourselves a safe space: a character we play, a story we tell about who we are. We don't just wear it. We live in it.

In this episode, I explain what I mean when I say this is a sacred space, not a safe space. I share the lie that ran most of my life. If you're not enough, they'll leave, and the anxiety that kept the performance running. We look at the scenes we cut from our own stories, what that costs us, and how, one reasonable step at a time, a lie we practice long enough becomes the truth.

Along the way: the Greek word behind "hypocrite," which originally meant a stage actor speaking from behind a mask. And what I found when my own mask finally started coming off.

This one is heavy. If something in you tightens while you listen, that isn't a sign something's wrong. It may be the real you, reminding you it's still there.

There is something I have never said aloud to anyone. I'm afraid to die.

This is where I turn and face that fear, through my father and the tender question he asked at the edge of his life. This is a sacred space...not a safe space. Come sit with the fear, and we will look together at what remains.

I was around eight years old when a question arrived that no one could answer. How did I get in this body? There was a "me," and there was this body, and the two were not the same. This first episode returns to that question, and begins a journey to search for answers.