In this episode you get a look at why I got married the first time. Not only do you get to see a glimpse of parental pressure, religious pressure, and what competition really looks like inside of my head but you also get to see redemption. In this cast I also want you all to know and see that when you are young, dumb,  full of cum, and competitve how it all will backfire on you. With what I know now, I wish I could go back in time and maybe help myself, however I will never forget my wrong doings. My past has lead me to this healing and this type of honesty and transparency. I say all of that to say... it's hard to live in this life without good guidance and it's even harder to do it with your head up your own ass. 

Detachment is hard... but what kind of detachment do you need to move forward? For me it's detaching from people and timelines. People will show you how much your hand is loosing from their tell's, like poker. I'm done playing poker I'm ready for transparency and vulnerability, real and sacred, trust and loyalty. 

                                   I want to be with the me who loves him who loves me!  

Ohhh boy, it took me two weeks and ten or so different sets of recordings to get to this mental space. I have so much more to say about this situation, however it's pointless so this is what I was able to give. It is so important to believe in your power and not to allow anyone to take your power from you. You know who you are and if you don't then find that person, because that person is inside you. Fill yourself with the grace of love, honor, and respect... because no one else on earth will. When you put yourself in the lions mouth know that it may bite  your head off, but also know that it can make you braver then you have ever been before... you choose!!!!