**Jessica Nickson thought she was Italian and German her whole life. A 23andMe test said otherwise.**

In this episode, Jessica (Big Brother 19, The Amazing Race) opens up about the moment her aunt called with news that would unravel her understanding of her own identity—and why her mother still won't tell her the truth.

We also talk about:
– Going on Big Brother while grieving her father, and the version of herself she doesn't recognize anymore
– Meeting her husband Cody on day 5 (and not wanting a showmance)
– Raising 5 daughters and mourning the end of the baby stage
– How her faith shifted from showing up alone at church in LA to finding real community in Texas
– What growth looks like when the internet wants you to stay the same person you were on TV
– Letting God fight your battles instead of fighting back

Jessica's story is messy, honest, and still unfolding—exactly the kind of conversation this show is built for.

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Timestamps
00:32 Welcome to If You Can Hear Me
02:23 Meeting Cody on Big Brother
03:33 Mourning the baby stage
08:43 Grief, depression, and losing her dad
12:40 What Cody saw in her
15:35 Finding a church home in Texas
20:13 Responding to online critics
24:58 Tips for growth and breaking cycles
31:02 Building community and date nights
37:03 The 23andMe discovery
45:12 Processing her mother's silence
52:48 What she's asking God right now

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