In this deeply personal and unscripted episode of Girl Meets God, Crystal opens up about a season of transition—from the person she used to be, to the woman God is calling her to become.

She shares honestly about her fear of being seen, something that feels ironic considering how much of her life she spent wanting attention, validation, and affirmation. From curating her image online and finding confidence through how others perceived her, to eventually wanting to disappear altogether, Crystal reflects on what was underneath the image: insecurity, depression, unhealed wounds, and a deep desire to control how others perceived her.

But God began to change that.

Crystal talks about what it has looked like to step away from an old identity, enter a season of isolation and wilderness, and learn to find her identity in Christ rather than in beauty, attention, perfection, or other people's opinions.

She also opens up about the uncomfortable transition from the wilderness into the harvest—the strange reality of praying for something for so long and then realizing that the promise has actually arrived.

What do you do when God finally gives you what you've been asking for?

For Crystal, the answer is learning to steward the promise well.

The conversation takes an unexpected turn when she reads through Deuteronomy 8, and the passage becomes a timely reminder that the same God who sustained her in the wilderness will sustain her in the promised land. The warning is just as important as the promise: don't forget the Lord when the harvest comes.

This episode explores:

• Fear of being seen and fear of being misunderstood
• The difference between worldly confidence and confidence in God
• Social media, validation, and curating an image
• Moving away from an old identity
• Depression, insecurity, and hidden struggles
• Learning to let God defend you instead of defending yourself
• Perfectionism and pride
• The wilderness season
• Moving from isolation into a season of harvest
• Learning how to steward answered prayers
• Discipline and obedience
• Discipleship and "feeding His sheep"
• Deuteronomy 8 and remembering God in the promised land
• Trusting God when you can't predict what He's doing
• Learning to receive what you prayed for

Scripture mentioned

Deuteronomy 8:1–18 — remembering God's faithfulness in the wilderness and remaining faithful when entering the promised land.

John 21:15–17 — Jesus' instruction to Peter: "Feed my sheep."

2 Timothy 1:7 — God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind.

1 John 4:18 — perfect love casts out fear.

1 Corinthians 2:9 — what God has prepared is beyond what we can see or imagine.

James 1:5 — asking God for wisdom.

The takeaway

The wilderness wasn't wasted.

God was feeding, teaching, humbling, strengthening, and preparing you—even when you felt like you had nothing.

And when you finally enter the harvest, the assignment isn't to forget the One who brought you there.

Remember the Lord your God.

Don't let the blessing become more important than the Blesser. Don't let the harvest make you forget the wilderness. Don't let answered prayers make you forget who answered them.

The same God who sustained you in the wilderness is the God who will teach you how to steward the promise.

You don't have to know exactly what to do next. You just have to keep walking with Him.

After more than a month away, I'm finally back—and this episode is an honest update on where I've been.

Over the past several weeks, I've walked through one of the most spiritually intense seasons of my life. Between spiritual warfare, confronting generational patterns, beginning therapy, and facing my mental health head-on, the Lord has been doing a deep work in me.

For years, I've struggled with depression and anxiety, and this season forced me to stop pretending I was okay. Therapy, prayer, community, and God's grace have all been part of my healing journey, and while I'm still growing, I can confidently say that the joy of the Lord has met me in a way I never expected.

In this episode, I share:

• Why I stepped away from the podcast
• My journey with depression, anxiety, and starting therapy
• What God has been teaching me through spiritual warfare and breaking unhealthy patterns
• How the Lord has been restoring my joy and strengthening my faith
• Why Girl Meets God is entering a new season
• The podcast's new upload schedule and what's coming next

If you've been in a season where you feel exhausted, spiritually drained, or like God has been doing hidden work in your life, I pray this episode reminds you that He is still faithful. Sometimes God calls us away from the noise—not to abandon us, but to heal us.

New episodes will now be released on the first and third Wednesday of every month.

Thank you for being here. I'm so grateful you're walking this journey with me. 🤍

In this thought-provoking episode of Girl Meets God, Kristal explores the difficult but important topic of cultural practices, idolatry, spiritual influences, and the ways believers can unknowingly participate in things that may not align with their faith. Drawing from her own experiences growing up in Jamaica, she reflects on cultural traditions she once participated in and how studying their origins led her to ask deeper questions about spirituality, worship, and biblical truth.

Throughout the episode, she discusses the importance of discernment, biblical knowledge, and testing everything against Scripture rather than accepting practices simply because they are popular, traditional, or culturally accepted. Kristal shares why she believes many Christians lack awareness of the spiritual roots behind certain activities and emphasizes the need to seek God for wisdom, understanding, and revelation.

This conversation touches on:

• cultural traditions and faith
• idolatry and spiritual compromise
• biblical discernment
• the importance of knowledge and understanding
• testing practices against Scripture
• spiritual awareness
• obedience to God
• conviction versus condemnation
• navigating culture as a Christian
• pursuing truth over tradition

With honesty, conviction, and personal reflection, this episode encourages listeners to examine their own lives, seek biblical wisdom, and ensure that their worship, devotion, and allegiance belong fully to God. Whether you agree with every perspective shared or are simply exploring these topics for yourself, this conversation is an invitation to think critically, study Scripture deeply, and pursue a closer walk with Christ.