F*CK! I’M 50 started with a pretty simple question: where the bloody hell did the last 20 years go?

One minute you’re working, raising kids and dealing with the everyday stuff. The next, you wake up and realise—fuck, I’m 50.

I’m Paul Burfitt. I’ve got a wonderful family, a beautiful wife and plenty to be grateful for. From the outside, things probably look pretty good. But life hasn’t been without a few hurdles—and this is a strange stage to find yourself in.

The kids hardly need us anymore. Our parents need us more than ever. And plenty of us are quietly wondering what the fuck is going on and what comes next.

So, in my own inimitable fashion, I decided to start a show.

This short first episode explains where F*CK! I’M 50 came from and invites you along for the ride as I share stories, talk to interesting people and see where this little experiment leads.

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This is F*CK! I’M 50.

Find out more about the show contact Paul by visiting fi50.show

My dad, Scott, is in his late 70s and has end-stage dementia.

He’s still here, but in many ways we’re already losing him. That’s hard to say—and even harder to watch.

Dad is a gentle, quiet and unassuming bloke who taught me a hell of a lot. We travelled around Australia together through my years working in motor racing and video production, with Dad often acting as my right-hand man.

Now he lives in a nursing home in Melbourne. When I visit, there’s sometimes a glint in his eye that makes me think he knows I belong—but the truth is, I don’t know whether he recognises me anymore.

In this short and very personal episode, I talk about what dementia has done to Dad and the effect it has had on Mum, my brother, our kids and the rest of the family.

But this isn’t about feeling sorry for ourselves.

Mum and Dad spent years travelling around Australia and doing the things they wanted to do while they still could. Watching Dad fade has reinforced one of the biggest lessons he ever taught me: don’t wait for tomorrow.

Spend time with your parents. Do the things you keep talking about. If the sun comes up and you’ve still got a heartbeat, it’s a pretty bloody good day—so get on with it.

I love you, Dad.

This is F*CK! I’M 50.

Find out more about the show contact Paul by visiting fi50.show

Angelo San Giorgio is an boating and camping lover with a background in sales and marketing. He's a Dad, a Husband, a Grandfather and still finds the energy to dress like a 25 year old!

We caught up recently at a cafe in Melbourne to chat about making his passion his business, letting go of family and bringing them closer when it matters.

Ange is a funny guy with a pretty cool story across two countries. Enjoy the chat.

This is F*CK! I'm 50.