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  • Ex-Evangelical Pastor Reveals Why Fear-Based Religion Conditions Members for Authoritarianism
    Jan 28 2026

    Brian Recker is a former Evangelical Pastor who spent about eight years in ministry before stepping away from traditional evangelicalism. He grew up as the son of a Baptist preacher and attended the fundamentalist Bob Jones University. Now, he speaks up about a love-centered relationship with God as interpreted by the Bible and shares why it’s common for people to fall into Authoritarian based control when they are already in a fear-based or high control religion.

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    Watch our initial interview with Brian here

    Brian’s Book: “Hell Bent: How the Fear of Hell Holds Christians Back from a Spirituality of Love”

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    IG: https://www.instagram.com/berecker/

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    **Disclaimer: This podcast provides a platform for guests to share their personal experiences and opinions. The views expressed are solely those of the guest and do not necessarily reflect the views of the hosts or producers. Any allegations discussed are unverified and represent personal accounts only. All individuals mentioned are presumed innocent unless proven otherwise. The podcast assumes no legal responsibility for statements made by guests.**

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    47 min
  • Why Baptist Preacher’s Son Became Popular Pastor Then Gave it ALL Up
    Jan 26 2026

    Brian Recker is a former Evangelical Pastor who spent about eight years in ministry before stepping away from traditional evangelicalism. He grew up as the son of a Baptist preacher and attended the fundamentalist Bob Jones University. Instead of pastoring a local church in the traditional sense, Brian now speaks, writes, and teaches about a more inclusive, love-centered Christian spirituality. By removing pun*shment from Christianity’s center, Brian boldly reimagines the core questions of faith, such as why Jesus lived and d*ed, and what it means to be “saved.” He emphasizes following Jesus without fear of hell, and focuses on compassion, empathy, and justice in spiritual life.

    Click here to watch on YouTube

    Brian’s Book: “Hell Bent: How the Fear of Hell Holds Christians Back from a Spirituality of Love”

    Follow Brian on social media!

    IG: https://www.instagram.com/berecker/

    Substack: https://brianrecker.substack.com/

    Brian’s link tree: https://linktr.ee/berecker

    Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!

    Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.

    Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!

    Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness

    Venmo @sheliseann

    Find us on Social media!

    Instagram @cultstoconsciousness

    Host Instagram @sheliseann

    Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_

    TikTok @cults.to.consciousness

    Twitter @cultstocon

    **Disclaimer: This podcast provides a platform for guests to share their personal experiences and opinions. The views expressed are solely those of the guest and do not necessarily reflect the views of the hosts or producers. Any allegations discussed are unverified and represent personal accounts only. All individuals mentioned are presumed innocent unless proven otherwise. The podcast assumes no legal responsibility for statements made by guests.**

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    1 h et 33 min
  • Life After MENNONITES with an 8th Grade Education (Discovering the “English” World)
    Jan 21 2026

    In the Old Colony Mennonites in Texas where JT was raised, education was only a priority up until 8th grade or age 13. After he escaped into the Military as soon as they would take him, he quickly realized he was either lied to or important information was left out. He ended up getting his GED at 21 years old. Learn how he navigated the "English" world with limited knowledge and a drive to succeed.

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    Watch our initial interview with JT

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    IG: https://www.instagram.com/jtguenter/

    TT: https://www.tiktok.com/@jt_guenter

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    Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.

    Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!

    Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness

    Venmo @sheliseann

    Find us on Social media!

    Instagram @cultstoconsciousness

    Host Instagram @sheliseann

    Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_

    TikTok @cults.to.consciousness

    Twitter @cultstocon

    **Disclaimer: This podcast provides a platform for guests to share their personal experiences and opinions. The views expressed are solely those of the guest and do not necessarily reflect the views of the hosts or producers. Any allegations discussed are unverified and represent personal accounts only. All individuals mentioned are presumed innocent unless proven otherwise. The podcast assumes no legal responsibility for statements made by guests.**

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    1 h et 3 min
  • OLD COLONY MENNONITES: His Tormented Childhood in a Strict Mennonite Cult
    Jan 19 2026

    In Western Texas is an Old Colony Mennonite settlement where John Guenter grew up. His mother converted and ended up being one of the most strict members there. He was bullied and abused constantly for being gay, even though he wouldn’t even fully understand his orientation until later in life. He was under threat of being kidnapped and taken to an unlicensed facility in Mexico where they sent people to be “fixed” for various reasons. Aside from the terror of being separated from family and sent to another country, it was well known that the Mennonites in Mexico had ties with the Cartel. He realized it wasn’t safe for him to remain in the settlement and escaped by joining the military as soon as he was able.

    Click here to watch on YouTube

    Watch our follow up live with JT

    Follow JT on social media!

    IG: https://www.instagram.com/jtguenter/

    TT: https://www.tiktok.com/@jt_guenter

    Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!

    Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.

    Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!

    Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness

    Venmo @sheliseann

    Find us on Social media!

    Instagram @cultstoconsciousness

    Host Instagram @sheliseann

    Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_

    TikTok @cults.to.consciousness

    Twitter @cultstocon

    **Disclaimer: This podcast provides a platform for guests to share their personal experiences and opinions. The views expressed are solely those of the guest and do not necessarily reflect the views of the hosts or producers. Any allegations discussed are unverified and represent personal accounts only. All individuals mentioned are presumed innocent unless proven otherwise. The podcast assumes no legal responsibility for statements made by guests.**

    See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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    1 h et 23 min
  • Escaping New Zealand’s Gloriavale: Cult Leader’s Granddaughter Exposes ALL
    Jan 14 2026

    Following up our incredible interview with Lilia Tarawa, today we go LIVE with her to further discuss what it was like escaping the Gloriavale cult. Founded by her grandfather, who was inspired by the Amish in the US, Gloriavale became an isolated community in New Zealand that implemented communal living, strict gender roles and even identical uniforms for its members.

    The numbers grew rapidly, especially since birth control wasn’t allowed. Lilia showed promise in leadership skills as a chiId, but was quickly shot down in an hours-long public shaming by her own grandfather. When her friends were being arranged to marry men they didn’t know or like, she realized she needed to escape. Learn how her whole family was able to leave Gloriavale and the struggles they faced afterwards.

    Click here to watch on YouTube

    Watch our initial interview with Lilia


    Book: “Daughter of Gloriavale: My Life in a Religious Cult”

    Find Lilia on social media!

    Podcast: “Brandbreaker with Lilia Tarawa”

    TT: https://www.tiktok.com/@liliatarawa

    FB: https://www.facebook.com/msliliatarawa

    IG: https://www.instagram.com/liliatarawa/

    Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!

    Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.

    Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!

    Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness

    Venmo @sheliseann

    Find us on Social media!

    Instagram @cultstoconsciousness

    Host Instagram @sheliseann

    Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_

    TikTok @cults.to.consciousness

    Twitter @cultstocon

    **Disclaimer: This podcast provides a platform for guests to share their personal experiences and opinions. The views expressed are solely those of the guest and do not necessarily reflect the views of the hosts or producers. Any allegations discussed are unverified and represent personal accounts only. All individuals mentioned are presumed innocent unless proven otherwise. The podcast assumes no legal responsibility for statements made by guests.**

    See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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    1 h et 8 min
  • Daughter of Gloriavale: My Life in a Religious Cult (ft. Lilia Tarawa)
    Jan 12 2026

    Lilia Tarawa was raised in an isolated community in New Zealand started by her grandfather, called Gloriavale. Inspired by the Amish in the US, he implemented communal living, strict gender roles and even identical uniforms for its members. The numbers grew rapidly, especially since birth control wasn’t allowed. Lilia showed promise in leadership skills as a chiId, but was quickly shot down in an hours-long public shaming by her own grandfather. When her friends were being arranged to marry men they didn’t know or like, she realized she needed to escape. Learn how her whole family was able to leave Gloriavale and the struggles they faced afterwards.

    Click here to watch on YouTube

    Watch our follow up LIVE with Lilia

    Book: “Daughter of Gloriavale: My Life in a Religious Cult”

    Find Lilia on social media!

    Podcast: “Brandbreaker with Lilia Tarawa”

    TT: https://www.tiktok.com/@liliatarawa

    FB: https://www.facebook.com/msliliatarawa

    IG: https://www.instagram.com/liliatarawa/


    Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!

    Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.

    Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!

    Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness

    Venmo @sheliseann

    Find us on Social media!

    Instagram @cultstoconsciousness

    Host Instagram @sheliseann

    Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_

    TikTok @cults.to.consciousness

    Twitter @cultstocon

    **Disclaimer: This podcast provides a platform for guests to share their personal experiences and opinions. The views expressed are solely those of the guest and do not necessarily reflect the views of the hosts or producers. Any allegations discussed are unverified and represent personal accounts only. All individuals mentioned are presumed innocent unless proven otherwise. The podcast assumes no legal responsibility for statements made by guests.**

    See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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    1 h et 32 min
  • Life After Swartzentruber AMISH: From No Electricity to Social Media Stardom ft. Lovina Zook
    Jan 7 2026

    No electricity, no running water, no indoor plumbing. Lovina Zook grew up in one of the strictest Amish settlements started by her own family. Highly demanding gender roles were enforced leaving Lovina with no other choice than to marry a relative and become a busy housewife, or be considered an old maid at 24. She had high ambitions and knew she had to escape and trade her entire family and community to be free to live her dreams. Her stardom has grown exponentially on social media where she teaches others how to cook and bake like she did while in the Amish. Join us to find out how she managed to do it and any struggles she faced along the way.

    Click here to watch on YouTube

    Watch Lovina's initial interview

    Find Lovina on social media!

    YT: https://www.youtube.com/@lovina_zook/videos

    IG: https://www.instagram.com/lovina_zook/

    TT: https://www.tiktok.com/@lovina_zook

    Website: https://socialsbylovina.com/

    Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!

    Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.

    Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!

    Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness

    Venmo @sheliseann

    Find us on Social media!

    Instagram @cultstoconsciousness

    Host Instagram @sheliseann

    Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_

    TikTok @cults.to.consciousness

    Twitter @cultstocon

    **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**

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    1 h et 33 min
  • Swartzentruber AMISH: My Midnight Escape From One of the Strictest Settlements ft. Lovina Zook
    Jan 5 2026
    No electricity, no running water, no indoor plumbing. Lovina Zook grew up in one of the strictest Amish settlements started by her own family. It was common to marry cousins as most people there were related by blood and a woman would be considered an “old maid” if still single by 24 yrs old. Lovina discusses the hardest parts including struggling with mental heath, strict rules and not receiving any love or affection from parents of family members. As soon as she turned 18, she ran away in the middle of the night with the intention to become more than the Amish would ever allow. Lovina would then find a massive following on social media. Click here to watch on YouTubeWatch our follow up LIVE with Lovina answering your questionsFind Lovina on social media!YT: https://www.youtube.com/@lovina_zook/videosIG: https://www.instagram.com/lovina_zook/TT: https://www.tiktok.com/@lovina_zookWebsite: https://socialsbylovina.com/Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**00:00:00 Intro00:03:17 Lovina's Amish settlement00:06:01 How leadership is determined00:10:52 Strict dress code00:17:18 Importance of covering hair in Amish tradition00:20:42 What family like was like for Lovina00:26:30 Lack of affection within the household00:34:17 Hygiene standards within the community00:42:38 Why she ran away00:48:52 Marrying cousins & s*xual repression00:55:46 Smuggl*ng books00:58:10 Why Lovina didn't want to be baptized01:04:25 When Lovina left01:15:29 Difficulties after leaving01:28:01 How her parents treated her after leaving01:33:15 Linda, listenSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
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    1 h et 38 min