In this episode, I’m talking about what it really means to grow up. And no, I don’t mean paying bills or being “responsible.”

I’m talking about maturity on the inside. The kind that requires healing, clarity, and letting go of survival tactics that once protected you but are now holding you back.

We’re unpacking why age doesn’t equal maturity, how clarity costs comfort, why healing is gritty work, and what it looks like to return to who God originally designed you to be without the armor, the fear, or the shapeshifting.

This isn’t about becoming someone new.
It’s about unlearning what you had to become to survive.

Host: Jordan Alexa
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Podcast Instagram: @almostunderstoodpod
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After months of silence and a year marked by extreme lows and unexpected highs, I’m sharing what I learned when stress showed up in my body, productivity became my identity, and everything I tried to avoid happened anyway.

In this episode, I talk about faith, obedience without outcomes, unlearning performance, shedding survival-based identities, and discovering that worth was never tied to what I could produce. This is a conversation about being forced to sit down, confronting the delusions we build to protect ourselves, and learning how to simply be.

Host: Jordan Alexa
Instagram: @_jordanalexa
Podcast Instagram: @almostunderstoodpod
Website: jordanalexa.com
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We’ve all heard it — “just do what makes you happy.” But what if that mindset is exactly what’s keeping you stuck? In this episode of Um Actually, we unpack the hidden cost of comfort and why the spaces we cling to the most might actually be the ones holding us back.

I’ll share a personal story about being led through literal darkness and how it forced me to confront my own fears around change, control, and uncertainty.

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Not all friendships last forever, but what happens when they end? In this episode, Jordan Alexa and Vannah Cherrelle open up about friendship breakups and transitions, sharing their personal experiences and lessons on handling these changes with maturity. If you’ve ever had to let go of a friendship or redefine a connection, this one’s for you.

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n this episode of Um, Actually, we explore the delicate balance between ambition and faith. Jordan shares personal insights and practical advice on how to pursue your goals while staying grounded in your values.

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In this episode of Um Actually, Jordan Alexa is joined by none other than her husband, Nick Kayea—director, producer, artist, musician, and actor. Together, they dive into the season of life they’re navigating, the realities of being a creative couple, and how they balance passion, partnership, and purpose.

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After a year-long break, Um, Actually is back! 🎙️ In this episode, Jordan Alexa kicks off the new year with a candid conversation about why she stepped away from the podcast and how that time off made her confront a deep-rooted struggle with perfectionism. From overthinking every creative move to realizing how fear of imperfection held her back, she unpacks the lessons learned and the mindset shifts that are shaping this new season.

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In life, we are often faced with tough choices: do we focus on surviving the challenges of the present, or do we dare to pursue our wildest dreams? In this conversation, we delve into the concept of "choose your hard" and explore the delicate balance between survival and dream pursuit.

Stay connected on Instagram: @umactually.jordanalexa. Your feedback matters, so drop us a line at umactuallypod@gmail.com. Cheers to a journey of growth and connection! 🎙️✨

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